Lectures have become harder in JC today and the stress starts to set in.
Maths have become more complicated.
Chem now involves algebra.
Physics is a little difficult.
Econs is very demanding.
Gp involves lots of reading.
Haiz...
Im not that study type of person and if i were to change, it will take lots of time to do that especially from a Gamer to a person who studies.
Eventhough having lectures with a few hundred over ppl seems fun, it's often hard to get what the teacher says and if i got a question, its hard to ask the teacher.
I guess its time to be independent and learn by myself.
JiaWei often tells me that we study is because for ourselves and not for the teachers.
If we don't know how to do, we should revise more and not always depend on the teachers.
She's right you know.
However in sec sch, if u dun get the question, the teachers will slow down and teach u but in JC, the teachers dun care if u noe or dunno if u nvr ask. They jus move on...
Now then i find out that JC teachers are cold-blooded T.T
I kinda miss my sec sch teachers like my very very fav teacher Miss Zaleha who teaches Chem. She nvr stops to ask us if we get it or not.
Not forgetting Mr Tan who teaches me E-maths. He is really patient with us and never loses his temper.
How i wish things jus dun change but change is inevitable whether we like it or not.
Maybe one day, i will be able to go back to my sec sch and see all my teachers again.. kinda miss them alot though they might not remember me lol
Anyway stress have been getting to me every lecture and sometimes i find it hard to concentrate cause i keep semi-dozing off every minute.
The feelings really unbearable but can u blame me?
I have to wake up so early and take a 1 hour bus trip to sch.
However, on the brighter side, my classmates are quite bonded with each other and its better then my sec sch.
You can never experience JC life anywhere in poly so the experience is quite interesting.

Sometimes in college, i kinda think about the principal's first day speech. She ask us aboutthe goals in our life.
What do we wanna achieve?
For me, i dun really know about it... Im jus studying for the sake of studying..
I never thought about wat university i wanted to go to and what courses to take at all..
I jus dunno wat i want anymore.
Since primary sch till sec 4, I have always wanted to be a Game Designer cause i have been playing so much games in my whole life.
Being a game designer is not about jus designing games but i think that a game designer is one who makes fantasy comes true and inject life into it.
Every characters are design with their special feature and traits.
Its jus so interesting to do that.
However now, i guess my dreams are jus mere dreams now.
Can't really do anything about it..

But even if i can't be a Game Designer, it doesn't mean i wanna give up on studying at a JC cause since im there, gotta try harder to succeed.
If anyone can do it, i can do it too.
Solo warrior Jia You Wor!!!

Ended my post @ 11:06 PM