Poly life have started and they seem so relax!!!!
haiz how i wish im relax too...
My sis even got the time to go and watch a movie.
How long has it been since i watch a movie....
long long time ago...

I really wish time would turn back to the day i was choosing which poly courses i wanna go to
I wish my mum did not stop me from going to game designing course.
Maybe i would have been very relax now.

In JC, u got to fight with homework, stress and sleepinesszZZZz

I still remembered the day when i left sec sch, i said i didnt wanna come back here again but come to think of it, i really wanna go back.
The school curriculum seems long when im still in sec sch but now, i dun even noe why i complain so much

I wan go back sec sch!!!!

Ended my post @ 10:38 PM

In school nowadays, people have been talking about relationships and stuff and its not like the older days where guys talk about games and girls talk about nothing important.
Is people nowadays more interested in the opposite sex??
Where ever i go, im bound to hear a few people talking about relationships and even in schools, there are couples... In Cg, people also like to discuss about relationships.
I still dun get whats so great in discussing and involving urself in a relationship. I kinda find it quite lame and annoying.
First of all, we got to care about what our spouse feel and plan what to do next.
Sounds like a lot of work.

I prefer to be simple and carefree.

For my CG mates, its kinda funny when it comes to relationship and stuff.
(No offence to any CG mates that is reading :D)
Ok so theres one guy who make a list on what his future girlfriend must not have as in the bad habits.
Making a list is not bad, it makes u know which target u wanna target but its making me feel that girls are like a good that has to be inspect for faults before selling them in the market.
And we have a relationship doctor in our CG too... because he has been in more relationships then us, he has become the love doctor.
Its kinda boring for me when he starts talking about relationships and stuff and to my surprise, everyone is interested in his relationship talk....
Boys want to know how to get girls &
Girls wanna know how to get boys.
The world is turning topsy turvy.

Love at first sight is also common in some people and i find that love at first sight does not exist at all. Why?
When u look at a lets say a beautiful girl and you say thats love at first sight...
Thats horny at first sight because u feel that u are in love just by judging by looks but when u get to dating, u will find ur love at first sight to be loveless in the second sight.. Are u in love with a person just by their looks?

Jeff Dunham, a famous comedian ventriloquist said one sentence in his comedy act that really makes me laugh. When you get married, you will say we will love each other till death do us apart but as days or years pass by, the may death do us apart becomes a goal for most husbands and wives.

Relationship is a complex thing and its not easy to handle as u have to invest ur time and money into it. Though it maybe sweet at first, it does not mean it will last. Especially for school couples. One day you will find that the freshness is not there anymore and loves go bye bye.

True love however can withstand time and tide but rarely i see it happen in real life or maybe for now.. True love only comes when u and ur spouse have face many difficulties together and because of this difficulties, you learn to love and appreciate each other more. However the true love that i see are usually in games only.
Just imagine you fighting monsters to save a damsel in distress, rescue her from evil warlocks and face a life and death situation. How can ur basic love not be refine into true love.

Ended my post @ 11:15 PM

Its close to saturday le and finally i can rest well.
Didnt get too much sleep this week cause i was doing my PI!!!

Speaking about my PI, i did it 3 times le and its still wrong so i gave up and dun wan do le... theres no marks for it though
Anyway got to study for my maths test which is like TODAY!!!
The ques were hard man....
dunno if i can pass or not.
But hope that i can!!!

So far, in JC, i failed all my subject which is so rare for me cause i nvr fail until like that!!! Especially in Sec Sch...
In sec ssch, i feel that im growing smarter and smarter but in JC i feel like im growing more stupid everyday haha dunno why
Wierd though...

I was deprived of sleep for the whole four days as i was saying earlier and i usually doze off in some classes.
Unless u can make me laugh, i go sleep le haha
But usually i try to keep myself awake by pretending im energetic but it often fails....
i even start drinking coffee till im almost immune to it haha

Also, today when we were having our GP class, Our teacher kinda ask if who is thinking about going to poly.
Hearing this just reminds me about wanting to go poly and study game designing.
I kinda thought about this issue for quite sometime thinking should i give up now, after 3 months in school...

I keep thinking am i walking on the wrong path you know..
Maybe im suppose to go poly but maybe im also suppose to go JC..
Its really confusing for me but i have decided to stay so im working hard for it though i may not like it but at least i can say to you, "I TRIED!!!!"
haha
but then, after reading this story on my Cell group post, it kinda sets me thinking and make me wanna strive even harder.
One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality...
I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said.

"Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I t ook very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water.

The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor.
Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.

"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit."

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."

He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots."

"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others." He said.

"The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful.." "Your time will come", God said to me.
"You will rise high"

"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and brought back this story.
I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never, Never, Never Give up.

ANyway my GP teacher is really awesome cause being an ex YJcian, he knows what we are going through and is really understanding towards us. HE even let us by food from the canteen to the classroom and eat. He even let us have free periods to study for our tests. Such a rare 22 year old teacher is hard to find these days but too bad his leaving quite soon. Maybe around June to study at the university. He wants to be a lawyer that means he loves to argue haha weird.... but anyway hope we get i GP teacher as kind as him :D

Ended my post @ 11:50 PM

Good Friday is officially over!!!! and now its GOOD SATURDAY!!!! lol
haha ok well kinda sad because theres no more holidays that i can look forward to in the next week and the next and the nextand the next.....

But still i enjoy it. Easter Drama was awesome and there is a repetition of the crucification of Jesus Christ. I feel kinda sad about it though i have seen that part in last year's easter drama but there is always something new.
For example when Jesus and another guy who was convicted of mass killing was trialed to see which one should freed and which one should be crucified, the mass killer was released and on the day of the crucification, he said something that really touches me. "It should have been me up there not you, you died in my place..."
Hearing this, a mental image jus forms in my mind.
I saw myself as the killer kneeling in front of the judge while jesus on my right.
Though i have committed a heinous crime, i was freed whereas, Jesus died willingly for me on the cross.
He just smiled at me.
Really touching for me.
I guess thats what Easter is all about, remembering who died for us on the cross and resurrected on the third day

Ended my post @ 3:13 PM

Days and days have past and i really miss my friends from sec sch but cant really meet them to go out for movies or just hang out somewhere.
Too much homework to do and im BROKE!! haha
yup im broke FINALLY!!
Kinda spent my money on food in JC whenever i can cause when u got nth to do, you eat
and thats how my money goes flying away...

Anyway cant wait for easter service to come next week!!! because theres a drama skit on THE FINAL SOLUTION: A new messiah.
Every year on special occasions, the drama team will always put up a very SUPER PROFESSIONAL AND FUNNY skit its seriously awesome to see.
For me, i think its better then the dramas on Tv.
I wonder what they got their ideas from.............

So anyway i should be doing my homework now and im not really doing it... not really interested in doing any homework these days...
just feel like slacking there.

Sometimes while slacking, i will just think about what should i do whenever i have breaks....and usually i will just go to the library and do my homework. Its kinda boring... dun really like scholl for that.
Haiz...
The issues i have been facing in JC is that i dun really click with any friends there and of course secondly is my studies which is like SO HARD!!!
Luckily i have a friend like Rudhra who can be said is my best friend in JC because she is easy to talk to and because of her, i know friends like Tereza and Sam. They are cool and fun to be with. Really wish i can change SG but its not possible to go to their class already. Tereza is running for the student council and i really like her motto. Be Bold. Vote Blonde. haha interesting.
You definitely get my vote for that.

Its kinda boring in my SG as everyone sort of has their own group where t hey have their small talks or whatsoever but im groupless. kinda sad...I wonder if all of them are avoiding me.
One example that really sort of depress me alot is last thursday where we have to go to the library to do our GP project and as i walked into the library first, i wanted to choose a place where everyone could sit together so i chose a table that is long for everyone to sit but everyone went to the back tables to sit, leaving me alone there. Kinda depress about that but if they really dun like me then whats the point of trying so if i have to work alone this 2 years then i guess gotta bear with it.
Though it maybe tough but i will always remember this. "Ëven if everyone deserts you, God will never desert you. When you think you are alone, you are not because God is just sitting right beside you." Its enough for me.

Ended my post @ 2:34 PM