Its close to saturday le and finally i can rest well.
Didnt get too much sleep this week cause i was doing my PI!!!

Speaking about my PI, i did it 3 times le and its still wrong so i gave up and dun wan do le... theres no marks for it though
Anyway got to study for my maths test which is like TODAY!!!
The ques were hard man....
dunno if i can pass or not.
But hope that i can!!!

So far, in JC, i failed all my subject which is so rare for me cause i nvr fail until like that!!! Especially in Sec Sch...
In sec ssch, i feel that im growing smarter and smarter but in JC i feel like im growing more stupid everyday haha dunno why
Wierd though...

I was deprived of sleep for the whole four days as i was saying earlier and i usually doze off in some classes.
Unless u can make me laugh, i go sleep le haha
But usually i try to keep myself awake by pretending im energetic but it often fails....
i even start drinking coffee till im almost immune to it haha

Also, today when we were having our GP class, Our teacher kinda ask if who is thinking about going to poly.
Hearing this just reminds me about wanting to go poly and study game designing.
I kinda thought about this issue for quite sometime thinking should i give up now, after 3 months in school...

I keep thinking am i walking on the wrong path you know..
Maybe im suppose to go poly but maybe im also suppose to go JC..
Its really confusing for me but i have decided to stay so im working hard for it though i may not like it but at least i can say to you, "I TRIED!!!!"
haha
but then, after reading this story on my Cell group post, it kinda sets me thinking and make me wanna strive even harder.
One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality...
I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said.

"Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I t ook very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water.

The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor.
Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.

"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit."

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."

He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots."

"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others." He said.

"The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful.." "Your time will come", God said to me.
"You will rise high"

"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and brought back this story.
I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never, Never, Never Give up.

ANyway my GP teacher is really awesome cause being an ex YJcian, he knows what we are going through and is really understanding towards us. HE even let us by food from the canteen to the classroom and eat. He even let us have free periods to study for our tests. Such a rare 22 year old teacher is hard to find these days but too bad his leaving quite soon. Maybe around June to study at the university. He wants to be a lawyer that means he loves to argue haha weird.... but anyway hope we get i GP teacher as kind as him :D

Ended my post @ 11:50 PM