OK yesterday was a little too much emo for me just feel so sad and all but today i feel kinda fine and actually happy cause its the end of school week and can rest for 1 days
My stamina from 100% on monday to 80% on tuesday 55% on wednesday to 30% on thursday to 10% on friday
SO TIRED!!!
No time for leisure...

Next week is the start of all tests and is so sianzz gotta study again..not like i dun study but study also always fail... whats the point...
I wanna play!!!
Hate JC
no life
but then sometimes im happy but only when My Econs teacher is in the happy mode because when shes happy she crack hilarious jokes. Funny

Anyway hope my brain capacity can exceed...

Ended my post @ 5:57 PM

Im so emo now... so depress....i jus feel so empty inside that i jus want to be in a vegetable state where i do not have to think about anything...
I know that i said before that i will work hard in JC but things are getting to tedious for me and sometimes i jus can't take it anymore. Everyone looks like they are having fun whether its in JC or poly and im all alone here, waiting to be discovered.
I just hate myself for being so close up. I dun even know why im like this..
I only remembered when i got my PSLE slip, i went around to look at which sch everyone is going to and i found out that only one of them is going to be in the same sch as me and i feared that i will not be able to make any friends.
I remembered the first day and the next consecutive days i was all alone in the sch, not having the guts to talk to everyone and i jus felt so alone. Nobody can understand that kind of feeling that i have.
However, luckily, i met some friends which click with me after a few weeks and that is how i survived sec sch.
But now, the friends that i can click with in pri sch to sec sch and now to JC has become lesser and lesser and now, its close to zero!!!
I know that many ppl always see me alone in sch and they may say i enjoy being alone but to tell the truth, i dun enjoy it at all. Nobody is born a loner however our differences has made some loners.
Sometimes i just want to blend in but my presence jus give an awkard atmosphere that i totally give up on trying.

How did i get myself to think about this in the first place?
Well, i wanted to watch a movie tomorro with my friends but guess what?? i cant find any.
The friends that i go out with are so limited and now i got no one to go out to have fun with. Funny right? A boy 16 years old with no friends.
Now, i also questioned myself whether im going to church because i really believe in God or i jus want to have friends and have a sense of belonging.
I dunno anything now....so confused....

I hope i land in a coma soon then, i do not have to think about this anymore. I alone in my own world jus sitting there.

Ended my post @ 9:28 PM

Ok since its been so long since i have blogged, i might as well revive it again!!
Well actually im just giving myself excuses to slack off haha dun really wanna do my econs homework. But also, i have lots of things to say and i really wanna write it out. Well, blogging its a way to release myself and it lets me be myself:) Though im always afraid to show people who i really am, i dun mind showing people what i am here:D

Anyway since last wednesday, our GP teacher has changed!! YAY for me i guess lol but maybe sad for the rest. Im glad that i have a new GP teacher is because i find that the first GP teacher was biased and irritating though his kind but more towards the girls... I dun blame him since his a guy and guys a flirtatous or whatever anyway my new GP teacher is super awesome i guess. im gonna ACE my PW haha since shes the best PW teacher :D

AFter school on wednesday, i had interact club and i kinda find out im more open in interact club then in any of my classes haha love the members there cause their kind and easy to talk to, Dunno why but being there seems so much better then being in my SG or CTG. MEt new friends that i got quite close with i think haha anyway they are awesome.

Lastly, everytime when i go home from school, im always in a crowded bus and its quite annoying. Have to stand for half an hour,,,, but during that time, as i listen to one of my handphone song, it kinda played to 1000 no kotoba which is also called 1000 words. Listening to that song jus makes me think of final fantasy x and x-2 and an iea jus struck me. I kinda wanna write a fantasy kinda book. I did that before but stopped at about chapter 3 because i find that my english is not really good and I DUNNO HOW TO WRITE A BOOK!! but anyway, jus a synopsis of what i was planning on writing about.
Its about this guard who was sent to guard this maiden until her scension ceremony. As the guard's wife died in the past, he became completely shutdown, unable to express any of his feeling to anyone. As he was walking past the bishop's room, he overheard what they will be doing with the maiden. Some cruel stuff which i will not say and this will put the maiden's life in danger. Though he did not really care about it at first but after one incident when he saw that the maiden looked like his deceased wife, he felt obliged to protect her because of his regret of not being able to protect his late wife. After a long time of whatever stuff they did, meet new characters, fight last boss and whatever adventures later, he felt that he is able to put aside his feelings for his wife and start to love the maiden but then things started to get worse.

Well its something like that though did not really think into the details but kinda got the concept there haha, Hope i have time to write this story, i will be so proud of it and im looking forward to design the characters :D haha so long nvr draw le hope i dun get rusty

Ended my post @ 10:13 PM