Im so emo now... so depress....i jus feel so empty inside that i jus want to be in a vegetable state where i do not have to think about anything...
I know that i said before that i will work hard in JC but things are getting to tedious for me and sometimes i jus can't take it anymore. Everyone looks like they are having fun whether its in JC or poly and im all alone here, waiting to be discovered.
I just hate myself for being so close up. I dun even know why im like this..
I only remembered when i got my PSLE slip, i went around to look at which sch everyone is going to and i found out that only one of them is going to be in the same sch as me and i feared that i will not be able to make any friends.
I remembered the first day and the next consecutive days i was all alone in the sch, not having the guts to talk to everyone and i jus felt so alone. Nobody can understand that kind of feeling that i have.
However, luckily, i met some friends which click with me after a few weeks and that is how i survived sec sch.
But now, the friends that i can click with in pri sch to sec sch and now to JC has become lesser and lesser and now, its close to zero!!!
I know that many ppl always see me alone in sch and they may say i enjoy being alone but to tell the truth, i dun enjoy it at all. Nobody is born a loner however our differences has made some loners.
Sometimes i just want to blend in but my presence jus give an awkard atmosphere that i totally give up on trying.

How did i get myself to think about this in the first place?
Well, i wanted to watch a movie tomorro with my friends but guess what?? i cant find any.
The friends that i go out with are so limited and now i got no one to go out to have fun with. Funny right? A boy 16 years old with no friends.
Now, i also questioned myself whether im going to church because i really believe in God or i jus want to have friends and have a sense of belonging.
I dunno anything now....so confused....

I hope i land in a coma soon then, i do not have to think about this anymore. I alone in my own world jus sitting there.

Ended my post @ 9:28 PM