Its been 4 months plus le and i can tell u all that i really dun wanna go JC anymore and some might know, i wanna transfer out of JC soon or maybe stop goin to JC after this june holidays.
Im really feeling very miserable right now
I thought after O's i will be happier but i guess tats not what i thought it will be.
Why mus i be on the edge everytime....
Talking to my CG leader, she told me that i should jus follow where my heart leads me too and i wanna really do game designing..
but..
why mus my mum be so demoralizing to such an extent that she jus makes me lose faith that im able to do it...
Why cant she be like the whites parents, always encouraging their children until they have such an high esteem.
For me i think i wrote it before, i scored a 250 over 1000 for my self esteem test...
i really hope i somehow jus die somewhere now cause i dun really know where i wanna be now..
I really wish i could jus read the book of my life now..
Maybe i can see where i should be and what should i do now...
then i will not be vex now..

Ended my post @ 11:34 PM