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A level MT results

2010-03-05T17:08:00.002+08:00

Im seriously damn depress about my results!!!!!!!!
I got an E and though i didnt not do that well, i should be happy cause i dun need to retake MT. But then theres jus this feeling in me that does not make me happy. I guess im jus aiming too high...but i really wanted to get B or even A but i guess i aimed too high cause my Chinese is alrdy bad initially... How to get good grades?

This made me remember about my O Level Chinese. When i got back my first MT result i jus burst out crying cause i got a C6 which means i still got to take the second MT O level. Luckily for this year i did not burst out crying or its damn embarrassing... but then still was about to cry but luckily able to hold it in.... Anyway O really have no hope in doing A level le... Later get bad results i seriously breakdown sia.....

But then its the only route i have left so really mus buck up... Anyway skipped PE today cause no mood to do.... Maybe will get scolded by stupid idiot BASTARD!!! Mr Mok..... Whatever....man

2010-03-04T20:57:00.003+08:00

Wow ok another month has pass and omg block test is comin!!!!!!!! man... im still not in the mood to study... Im jus feel really tired everyday and no mood to do anything when i come back. Im starting to worry about my A's but then, i still dun wanna study ....

Anyway February is a really busy month for me cause i got lots of activities going on!!
I was in Charge of the International Costume Competiton cause im the NE REP and supposdly i have to be the model but luckily i manage to shake that off so i became the designer XD I was really sad that i did not won cause i really put lots of effort into it T.T..but i guess there are much better costumes out there so Whatever man!!!

Next, I was FORCED TO LEARN FIRST AID !!!!!!!!!!! by my econs teacher... she said she needed volunteers and its "optional" and as always, her "optional" is not "optional"... She threaten not to give appendix to those who did not come......Anyway i had fun at the First aid training because, firstly, i became the injured and ppl got to carry me on the strecher... Scary sia WTH it seems so not stable... Secondly, the teacher in charge wants to demo to us how to carry a person up and he did it on the student and he fell haha opps but its seriously damn funny. Even Miss Aminah laughed. Lastly, i have to be in the first aid team which is "funny in a way" I so skinny ask me do stretcher... I think that person will die when i drop him or hr haha ........ anyway this training is done so as to prepare us for the drill which should be happening somewheere near the future.... i hope im not the one whose at the scene to carry "dead bodies" out

Next is My class Have to plan for CVD!!!!!! well i did not really do anything though jus accompanied my class and do whatever is needed. This years CVD is boring again... especially my calss stall...Sell drinks....I prefer last year's one though XD Get to slack in air-conditioner room haha and this makes me miss my previous CTG ppl!!! Brings back lots of memories but ok la my now CTG also not bad. I open up more this year so its better then last year!!

Also, I had to Plan with my team members in CCA and participate in the Eye Quiz which is held during CVD day. It was really frustrating cause go home so late T.T but felt a sense of accomplishment when everything is done successfully. Felt sad cause didnt win first prize which is $100 CASH!!!!!!!!!!!!! My friend won $50 sia... so jealous... but anyway she treat me to some food so haha

LAst of all for today, i had a maths test and i think i fail le T.T cause the ques were hard lor. Didnt even get the concept of vectors and complexes.... Its confusing the way they phrase their questions too so planning to take test 2 le........

Really wish i will have the mode to study soon. I need motivation!!!! to push me or i will stay stagnant

Thoughts on January

2010-01-31T20:15:00.002+08:00

Ok its 31 Jan and yup one month nvr blog le sort of.
I wont say that this one month pass by fast, its jus ok

Anyway on 11 Jan was my first day back in school and yes the sch was quiet cause only got J2 so hehe i like it but then when go into my class its like OMG!!!!! so small... then i started missing my other frens. So sad 5 more friends gone from my class and OUR CLASS IS THE SMALLEST.... So i jus cant wait for the J1 to come!!
The canteen was so empty too and its rare. Everyone was talking about the retainees and how they miss their presence. I was kinda sad too.

As the days pass i guess the class got use to being small and everything was sort of back to normal again. It wasnt so bad as some of them pop back to school jus to play in sch so we get to see them.

Besides that, i enjoyed the YJC open house too this month cause get to skip lessons for like 2 hours or something and the best thing about it is jus sit there nd slack haha nvr really did anything but i enjoyed the company of my CCA mates XD They are fun to hang out with.

Fast forward to jus last wednesday during CCA meeting, i found out i was posted as usher during CVD!!!!!! I have to wear long sleeve sia and blazer.... but its not confirm though but one funny thing is when i said i no long sleeve my CCA teacher Mr Chong offered to lend him one of his while boasting about it being expensive. I was like WTH i noe i skinny like you but no need like that ba.... hope i dun have to be ba...

Anyway, the next day was the first day where J1 first enter YJ and wow i sort of regretted cause i think theres more J1 then J2 and the worst thing is that the canteen became so pack with J1 and J2 no space to sit sia.... The school became noisy again... But anyway nothing last forever u noe... The worst thing about them is that Their orientation camp like more fun then ours... no fair....

But then also glad i get to see two of my PW mates again haha im seriously happy cause i really miss them. Their talkativeness and whatever XD really wish they had been promoted but fate is so cruel T.T hope they do well in J1 this year though and hope we get to talk some day too.

Anyway im signing off cause lazy to type le haha bb

Last holiday

2010-01-10T18:33:00.003+08:00

Finally the long december break is over and tmr will be the start of sch again. Im kinda sad and seriously was so depress to hear that 5 of my classmates are either retaining or goin to poly. 2 of them were my Pw mates too.... Kinda feel guilty that i did not help them much in their studies.... our class from 21 ppl initially has fell to 20 then 19 after that, 14 is what is left of SG17.... The classroom will never be the same again as laughter are decrease and stresses are increased..

However i hope that it will still be a good year ahead as new challenges come and well... hope can pass A level!!! If i not retain la cause advance students need to see GP assignment before promoting and i got a real bad feeling i will retain cause haha anyhow do de XXDD but by God's grace *cross fingers*

Anyway did Dragon boating today and seriously its awesome, love it !!! I thought dragonboating was jus rowing on water so didnt bring extra change of clothes. Thought i was smart but in the end besides rowing, we got tons of SPLASHING going on between boats and sadly, i got drench. This is not the end, we played the 7 up gameon board the dragon boat and i screw one game up and i scored a pail full of Kallang river water poured all over me.... but very refreshing hahaha love it still. After that had a competition between other groups and guess what, we got third place out of 5 so we are not good and not bad haha

After the game as you know, im drenched and no etra clothes so have to take MRT with wet pants. Luckily my shirt and hair dry faster so its not so embarrassing to take MRT. Also, i saw my hated GP teacher Mr Chong near Kallang there. Think he goin dragon boating too cause he holding the paddle. Hope he did not see me haha HATE HIM!!!

One great accomplishment today, I FINALLY DID ALL MY ARTICLES AND WHATEVER REVIEWS!!!
Anyway gtg study for stupid Econs and Chem le haha bb

2009-12-23T20:56:00.003+08:00

Its 23 DEC!!!!!!!!! School is reopening in a few more weeks T.T
Its so sianz
Anyway these 19 days have been quite fruitful as i did things that i have never done before!!!!!!!!
Firstly, something i did before but at some place i never go before which is BIKING!!!!!!!!!!! When cycling at the SunPlaza park there. That day was DAMN sunny and we cycled to Pasir Ris to see the Prawn Farm before comin back and seriously, i was complaining almost 1/4 of the day about the hot weather cause seriously, i feel myself burning.... And after that day, i kinda regretted goin cause I GOT TAN!!!!!!!! and i dun like to be tan cause i just dun like it......

Secondly, I DID KAYAKING!!!!!!!!!!!!! Kinda fun though cause i nvr Kayak before and when im on the two seater boat, i find i got no strength to row the boat haha....too weak le but anyway tried my best and I DID IT!!!!!! Seriously its very tiring. I also swam in the DAMN dirty water at kallang..... and seriously, its so hard to get up the boat when u fall into the water. The funny part was some of the girls dropped into the water and cannot climb back up XXDD Its like their experiencing childbirth with all the eeeeeeeeee and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh haha hilarous XD

Thirdly,AWESOME CHRISTMAS PARTY EVER!!!! Better then last year haha I guess its all the friends that were there that made it all happen XXDD I was forfeited 2 times though i never lost any game... Y? because the person forfeited got the choose any partner criteria to forfeit with them and apparently my name was engraved into their minds during the last game where everyone keeps calling my name so in the end, GG for me.... The food was awesome too!!! I love it but as usual, its not filling much cause tight budget. Hoped my CG gets expanded much then our budget will increase too XXDD haha wrong purpose but its a start XD I really enjoyed myself that day

Fourthly, I served as an volunterring USHER at Children's Church today at PIONEEER!!!!!!!!!!! WTH so far.... Im living at the last 2nd stop of the East Side and i have to travel to the Last 2nd stop at the west side.... But i think its worth for it la for the 2 hours travelling trip cause i met new friends!!!! haha though i only know their name and might not be seeing them at all again but its still nice to know some new friends XD. Also today, I found out that seriously i am too weak... can't even carry HEAVY presents from one place to another properly..... Sad man i think im the weakest there..... Hope i get buff up one day haha but too lazy to exercise.... Today is also the First time that i have been called an UNCLE!!!!!!! Do I look like one? IM so YOUNG!!!! lol so sad .... one child call me Uncle... at least can call me kor kor ma... Anyway Fun, Tiring, Fruitful day today!!!!

Christmas is coming again!!!!!!!!!! Always anticipating this time of the year aand still hoping it snows at least one short while also can but impossible SADDDDDDDDDD

Dismantling LEGO from 1st Dec to 2nd Dec

2009-12-04T01:43:00.003+08:00

This happen 2-3 days ago... Was planning to blog about it but was lazy.
Lazy + tired = No Blog haha XD

Anyway really glad that 2 of my JC friends came to the LEGO Dismantling thingy for the WE ARE ONE project XD Thx Much TQ and Raymond XXDD

First of all, I LOVE THE SHIRT!!! I look good in it haha
Second of all, YAY get to stay up till 6.00 AM

When I first reach there, i saw the structure of the LEGO on the second floor of ION and i thought wow, are we needed here in the first place cause looks like 50 people is enough.... By the way there were 120 volunteers (Im inside XXDD)

We went to change into the newly given shirt and we start to dismantle the Lego.
I and my friends plus Cg mate were in Team 6!!! We were suppose to dismantle for 1 hour then proceed to stack the legos into groups so that other groups can pack them into bags and these packs will be send to the needy family.
Side note, we were the only team to dismantle like Sia until the floor is like a battle field haha. We told the other volunteers we will sort them properly for them but in the end, when 1 hour is up, our team left, leaving the mess to the rest of the team still in charge of dismantling XXDD sorry guys

We were glad to be on the stacking team at first cause its painful to pluck out all the lego ESPECIALLY THE TRANSPARENT ONE.... Btw i was surrounded by university ppl so when we started stacking, they talk about legislation of S'pore and i was like Diao.... But they also got talk about other stuffs later but i alrdy went to my JC frens there and stack XXDD The mood was high at that point, especially when the DJ started to play musics to entertain us. My team was super high when they played Lady GaGa's Bad romance XD they sing out loud too. It was funny

However, after that, as time pass, the mood starts to go low as everyone started to get sleepy. We continued stacking for hours... That is when we started to want to go to the packer's side cause their job seem easy. Food was provided so i think its cool. We continued to stack for 5 hours before they ask us to stop.
Due to us being slow, we only manage to pack 2179 bags in totl while our target is 3000.... But kinda good i guess. I remember the last lap the time, everyone start to chiong stacking cause we in charge of stacking the blues and medium blue is always in shortage. Also in the end, everyone complain of not wanting to ever touch LEGO again haha funny. One university guy, Howard, said something that made everyone burst out in laughter. He said "Next time i bring my children into the toy shop i will say u can buy anything except LEGO. No LEGO for u" haha i think everyone got that kind of sianzzzzness for LEGO now XXDD

After that, a news reporter came to interview the person in charge. we took group photos and WE ARE OFF!!!! to eat breakfast at Mac before going home to sleep....
Very tired sia.. almost fell down on the MRT cause wanna sleep and its ALL THE WINDS FAULT... keep blowing my eyes till they shut.... but luckily nvr fall or DAMN embarrassing la

Today, LiWei tell me that We are on the newspaper!! she sent me the mail and say Im in the background XXDD

Im at the back!!! the top right beside the box XXDD though cannot see my face but ITS ME haha anyway the project was quite fun ba until 5 hours later haha

BBQ & KTV

2009-11-29T01:03:00.002+08:00

Holidays have started and im really excited XXDD I have always been waiting for this day to come for like so long!!!
But then one sad part is that after the last day of sch when i got home, i got a fever for some reason but it cleared after a few hours of nap. Then after that, i got back to playing DOMO for a few hours XD but then, my guild is gone T.T Snivia is gone T.T sad but i guess it happens when u stop playing for a few hundred days....

Anyway i had a BBQ with my beloved CG on Fri and I HAD LOTS OF FUN HAHAHAHAHAHA. Though i cannot eat the food, i keep playing the games provided. Also, i get to interact more with my friends!! It was definitely awesome that night and for some reason, i felt that it was like my last night there..... I felt like i was dying or something.... dunno why... but then i had lots of fun till i was so damn tired that i went home, took a bath and sleep.... but before that, i went to eat apple pie with Chloe, JH and Hong Kai after the BBQ cause i was a lil hungry. HK is definitely i eating machine!!!! cause he ate finish BBQ le then still go mac and ate i chesse burger and 2 apple pie and even eat faster then me when i only had 1 apple pie...... Anyway hope he comes back to CG soon then i think our Cg can become more lively.

The Next day which is sat, i woke up at 7.30 jus to wanna prepare myself to go Toa Payoh...... and in the end, the location is at KALLANG!!! i could have gone myself... but anyway had fun interacting with my Sg mates about movies and hahaha they cant see that i love gory movies until now XXDD i have that innocent face :D
Anyway went to the KTV and ok la the place. Touchscreen monitor is cool and as usual, nvr sing much haha cause i dun listen much to eng and chinese song so hahaha cant help it. But actually quite fun la cause everyone sang well while i found out i cant sing well.... cant hit any pitch but mono.... not fair

Anyway like i said over and over I LOVE MY SG!!! haha they are fun and im the only not fun person so haha anyway IM TIRED LE!!!!!!!!!! so nitez

Hell Girl

2009-11-21T23:40:00.003+08:00

SOOOOO LONG nvr blog le and thats always the start of my blog haha
Always stop blogging after blogging
Sometimes wanna blog bout stuffs but then got lazy too but now im blogging because i dun feel like bathing yet....
giving myself excuses to delay XXDD

Anyway recently i was watching this anime called Jigoku Shoujo (Hell Girl) and i find that this anime was really GOOD!!!

Basically this story is about grudges in the human heart. When someone wants to have a revenge they can ask for help from Jigoku Shoujo by typing the name of the person on the Jigoku tsuushin(Hotline to Hell)which is a website only accessible at midnight and it only can be access by people with strong grudges. After submitting the name of the person, Enma Ai will appear and give a straw doll with a redstring tied around the neck to the person. "If you want revenge, pull the red string. By pulling it, you will make a covenant with me. The recipient will be ferried away straight to hell. However, when you curse someone, two graves are dug. You will be required to pay the compensation. Your soul will fall into hell and suffer for eternity but thats only after you die." and as far as i know, everyone pulled the string...

After watching that anime, though haven watch finish, i was feeling alot of stuff. Is it really right to do so, jus taking away people's life. Sounds really cruel and injustice but then most of the episodes, the person ferried to hell are people who are really despicable and should go to hell so i though Enma Ai was doing the right thing BUT one episode i saw really left me clueless whether she was doing the right thing..because one nurse who was really pure and kindhearted was send to hell by one psychotic person for no reason!!! I really pity that woman... She was shouting "NOO why did i have to go to hell, i don't even know that guy!! Why would he do this to me" I feel so sad for her T.T

But then i guess its jus like that....
sad but continued to watch on XXDD

I like the anime so much that i tried finding the website and guess what, IT REALLY EXIST!!! haha its jus like the anime. Jus type Hell correspondence and the website will come out haha. Though i only know that that website is jus a gimmick but i jus wanna try typing someone's name inside and see what happens XXDD but haven type la
I have no one that i wanna have revenge on XXDD but jus so eager to try it XXDD

Overall, the naime is really touching, sad and exciting XXDD i really love it MUS WATCH!!!

Last OP meeting

2009-11-10T23:35:00.002+08:00

Today is the day before my A level OP exam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haha kinda scared but will go through it normally
Cant afford to lose out at this point but anyway today we had our last Big Op rehearsal.
Will miss it though anyway after this, we will not have anymore of such meetings and also dunno what will happen next year so jus enjoy it XXDD

Anyway will miss my PW group de
Iguess im really bless to be in that group though haha ok let me give u an idea of what i think of my group at first.

When i was first posted to my PW group, i was damn sad ::((((( cause my group members is all those i nvr talk to de... Well not like i talk to everybody anyway but ya haha. Anyway they all look so slack so i thought my PW over le
So at first we started with 5 members including myself. PW meetings were strenuous cause whenever we meet, we did not get stuuf done so i was kinda fed up. But anyway after that, when Kevin leave le, the leadership position got push to either me or Yesmeen but of course i give it to yesmeen la cause im not leadership materialXD anyway after that, we jus kept doing pw and seriously in the process, i get to like my PW group members because they are funny and i get to hear gossips HAHAHAHAH lol no la not that interested but anyway jus hear XD

Also, we get to understand more about each other and ya glad that my members are able to tolerate my emoness and also are able to encourage me everytime. Sidetrack a bit but jus wanna say IM REALLY GLAD TO BE IN SG 17 cause i think if i go other SG they will completely ignore me de because i emo but in SG17, they dun totally ignore me de so ya glad about that. Anyway back to my PW group, i guess our PW group is the slackiest but still the happiest ba cause we have fun while doing our PW XD well mostly them cause i am usually the bossy one to rush them but anyway someone has to right? haha anyway glad no conflict in our group and everything went smoothly.

I actually dun mind what grades i get now cause at least i had fun doing it :D for now at least haha anyway i think that without PW group, i will never be able to get lil close to anybody in class though so ya hahaha GOGOGOGOGOGO YJ083!!!!!!! haha jiayou

But then, i kinda scared after PW i dun get to have that kind of fun anymore... T.T
Cause i will be alone again...
sad but thats how i am i guess..
Anyway i go practice OP le haha

You don't know me

2009-11-01T00:04:00.003+08:00

Ok haha so long nvr blog already cause firstly, kinda sianzzz and dun wanna blog and Secondly, kinda sianzz so dun wanna blog XD

Anyway yup promos is so DAMN over XXDD like long long long long time ago le. Why ? Cause i so long nvr blog le XD Anyway that wasnt the main point but today jus wanna talk about ME aand its the serious me.

So ya y i wanna talk about me today is because of todays bustrip back from Bedok inter after eating dinner with my Cg. I took a bus home with my friend Chloe and she kinda ask me if i have anything to share with her like my personal issues. You know, like do i wanna talk about anything? Dunno why she randomly ask this question but anyway yes i do have tons of things i wanna talk about with people but when she ask me that question, i kinda sort of think for a while.

Since like forever, i never talk to anyone about my problems before.i usually jus keep it to myself and trust me, when i talk about my problems to u, they are not the major ones that are plaguing me. But then, i recalled so many times people are able to confide in me but im not able to confide in them..... Is that kinda selfish or something?

If yes then sorry but i jus can't trust anyone though some may choose to trust me. Anyway my problem is a problem tat is damn major that i may lose many friends because of it so ya haha not going to tell anyone :X So jus to let u know, u may think u noe me but in fact, u noe nth about me. All u see about me are superficial details and i guess i'll leave it at that till someday......maybe

Sidenote: Hope my poor little friend JIAHUI dun get so stress out about her O's cause she more extreme then me when i take my O's. If u read my blog when im doing my O's, u can see that my blog floods with emoness haha.That blog posts are all in my old blog space haha but i think u all cannot read le cause i kinda deleted the whole blog because my sis Tag all the nonsense shit there and thats how my current blog is born. I thnk i remembered writing i would rather kill myself or something haha anyway after taking O's, i know the trick is to do lots of TYS but then when telling one who have not taken their O's it is useless cause all they think that its not enough!!! haha Anyway like Liwei always said, After you have put in effort, leave the rest to God. Cheers to that.

ALso NExt week Mon is A level chinese!!!!!!! I absolutely detest that abomination subject!!! When i finish my O's chinese, i was so happy because i thought i no need to take chinese anymore but fate plays with u... Didnt noe i was going to JC and now, IM TAKING CHINESE AGAIN!!!!!!!! Haiz anyway gotta study hard for it for at least one day HAHAHAHAHA then after that, I WILL BE FREE!!!!!!!! Buit then after that got Intensive H2s and I HAVE TO LEARN MALAY!!!!!!!! cool in a sense but lol haha shock when i heard it. Wonder y no Japanese.... T.T I WANNA LEARN JAP!!! I kept thinking if the Japanese were still governing Sg, what would it be like now? Will I be happy? Maybe XD Wait, i think i will be Damn Happy cause NO NS!!!!!!!! hahahahahahha too bad they run back to japan after a little attack T.T

Hope i can go Japan someday with my friends!!!!!! Oyasumi minna!!!!!!

Econs Promo 2009

2009-10-12T22:31:00.003+08:00

YES!!!!! Econs is finally over im so happy.
Firstly i wanna thank the one who helped me the most and that is LIWEI!!!! A for A level man... Wan get A too....
Secondly i seriously wanna thank an invisible helper and that is God!!!!!! Man he gave me so much clues the night before!!! I was fliping through my notes to ry and study and then theres this two words written on top of my M.C notes and it says Memorize Oligopoly.... Did not know when i wrote that but that 2 words seems to bold out for me so i sort of read through oligopoly and try to understand. Them when morning came, i jus have the urged to read through the public good and merit good and it really came out phew but the sad part is i did not finish question 4 part A and the rest of the essay im afraid not able to score well cause i was damn nervous and chiong all the way but can pass de...MUS PASS!!!!!! or i will let Liwei DownXD

Anyway case study was damn easy got lots of time to do. When i finish, i left like 20 mins to spare so i check through and improve my answer however the sad part is the last question they say state two other measures besides banning and i remember that for a while but forgot about it when i attempt the quest and i wrote partial banning .... 8 marks sia maybe lose 4 marks ....sad..... But please let me get good grades!!!!!!!

Oh ya also one funny thing is last night before econs promo, I DREAMT ABOUT MISS AMINAH!!!!!!!!! FREAKY!!!!! She was in her usual mood... scolding us in econs tutorial then for some reason when she left the class, she felt guilty i think.. so she went back into the classroom with a smile on her face *which is freaky* and offer to give us extra tutorial to help us. I was like oh yeah got extra lessons but the i woke up... did get to attend my dream tutorial haha if i had not woke up, i would have been fully using my time to study econs XDXD but anyway freaky much XXDD hope dun get that kind of dream again but, was kinda cool in a way XXDD

Oh ya and btw the new haircut i had, people say i look like a rooster T.T so sad anyway at least u can see that im a male so haha but seriously, I LOOK WIERD?? T.T My classmates were like KENNETH, WHAT HAPPEN TO YOU.... I hate short hair...

A Blurry Day

2009-10-10T00:59:00.002+08:00

AAAAAAHHHHHHHH cant focus on studying...
I thought that as promo draws near i will start to buck up jus like when im in sec sch. Few weeks before exams i will be chionging with my studies but now, i jus dun feel like studying anymore. Though Liwei is trying to help me and i appreciate it but i dun find the point of studying hard.....
We study cause we wanna earn money in the future and i jus dun feel like it to study now... Jus wanna slack the whole day.
But will try to push myself de jus that my its easy to push urself physically but not mentally...

Anyway went to Cg today and i find it quite refreshing to be there today for some reason. Dunno why.. Kinda lost my specs somewhere at home and was rushing to go out so in that instance, i left home without my specs. Though my degree is about 200+ but still, the world is blllur to me today. I dun see faces of people but jus colours smudging together. Some people say i wanna act handsomecause dun wan wear specs....i won't specify who hor JIAHUI!!!!!!!! but anyway can't find ma T.T haha
but then actually i guess maybe not wearing my specs would be good for me cause i dun get to see ppl's faces and stuff..it may help me i guess...somehow..but its kinda refreshing not wearing specs cause i feel free!!!

Anyway during the praise and worship, the first praise song i sang it in such a gay voice!!! dunno how come my voice like that but after that when i went to the worship song, i sang ok and the song seriously touch me alot XXDD love that worship song. Liwei preach a good message today too. Glad i came cause it jus enlighten a part of me.

Fellowship is good today too!!! first time went to Sembang Bedok to eat *think thats how they spell the name* Nice food and great time to interact with my Cg mates XXDD
Anyway without my specs cant really appreciate lots of stuff so XP
After our meals, we went to take a bus home and we saw someone fell down while trying to carry his bike up the overhead bridge and my Cg mates quickly went to check if his ok. I wanted to go to but everyone left their stuff at the bus stp so can't but though i can't see clearly what they i doing but im jus touched in a way that my Cg mates went to help that injured man or woman. Can't see if its a man or woman but anyway Im glad o have friends like them XXDD

2009-10-08T22:30:00.002+08:00

Promos is in 4 days and im scared.
Know i didnt study much and im gonna flunk it T.T lol haha anyway will try my best cause i dun wanna be stuck with little kiddos next year.
Kinda wierd haha
Anyway I gotta get a C for maths at least T.T or i fail...
My highest and ever attainable grade is E.... quite a challenge that and I ACCEPT IT HEAD ON! haha bring it though it does not mean i will get it but like its always said, you never know unless u try XD
For Econs, dun really know how to study... Its a difficult topic so throw a dice and flip a coin! lets see if im lucky or not XXDD
Chemistry.... the worst 2nd worst subject ever... dun get Chem and Ionic Equilibria and they cover up to 60% of the paper....
Physics haha my proudest subject cause i get straight Us for every test, mini test, test that are not really like test and DW haha....
can't help it, physic bores me nvr like it in sec sch, won't like it now.
Anyway though promos comin, cant help but worry about my OP which will happen on 11 NOV T.T im a shy person u noe XD
Anyway will try to study a bit ba now.... Nitez and may the stars be with all promo takers XXXXDDDD......being cheesy here

2009-10-01T18:38:00.002+08:00

Yay finalyy change my blogskin.
Wanting to do that for a long time but was lazy but anyway today for me its a HOLIDAY!!! CAUSE ITS CHILDREN DAY!!! no need go school!!! hahaha
And if u have some common sense u would know that im LYING!! cause like come on 17 and children's day please phish..
But anyway really had a holiday today cause my school is celebrating their sustain acheivement and bullshit..
Value added does not mean anything cause plus 1 plus 2 is also value added but anyway its their business I GOT A HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha
but spent all my dat trying to do my EOM but cant credit the reliability of my work so sianz but hope its good.
Anyway today is also the first time i called KFC delivery and its damn embarrassing cause i thought KFC got upsize too so i ask for an upsize and they tell me they are no Macdonalds... XXX(((( that is seriously damn embarrassing but anyway its on the phone so haha they dunno me XD
I was eating and watching a movie Wizards of waverly place the movie and seriously the storyline is damn great. The ending was so touching and some lines they said made me think of a lot of stuff.
One such example will be when Alex,s mum said "Do you need any help?" Alex replied "No I most definitely do not need your help" and her mum said"Fine, but one of these days i might not be there to offer it." This made me think about what if my parents were not here le.. will feel lost but its really hard to cherish them when they are being irritating sometimes but anyway will try lol XXDd

Anyway struggling to stay focus on studying but cant... JASON MRAZ SONGS ROCKS XXDD haha. so random haha anyway his voice is damn angelic and it rhymes so much XXDD

2009-09-22T00:43:00.002+08:00

Ok back to blog again.
My GP and chinese promo paper is over and i can say im gonna do badly for it T.T was sleepy when i did it furthermore, i did not have enough time to do ... so was like rushing the whole way...
Anyway i hope a miracle happen.
On sat, i met my cellgroup people for church and i can say that pastor kong preach an awesome message. I love the story about Jonah and really if he did not like explain the book of Jonah, i really wont understand it at all. After church, we went to T3 to eat and I LOVE the Hokkien Mee there!!! its not watery and its jus right XXDD AFter we ate finish, kinda went to orchard and watch the Ugly Truth and that show was AWESOME!!! i love every single bit of it. Its a must watchXXDD ^.^ reach home at about 3.00 and seriously was damn tired but felt greatXD
On sun, my group members came to my house to do PW!! Really appreciate them for comin cause i was lazy to go there but anyway not much progress was made though.
TODAY!!! i am sick..... Kinda caught Yesmeen's flu i guess...keep sneezing and feel light headed and sometimes giddy.... did not noe the world spins...anyway manage to study with royston. hope he is able to do well in his studieds cause O level is impt for it is like a stepping stone. Without it, ur future gone le.... But anyway he can make it i think HAHAHAHAHXD anyway wanna sleep le cause my nose like running water like that... and also mus not be sick for sch tmr!!!! also, kinda check my marks and i JUST PASS MY MATHS TEST!!!! IM SO DAMN HAPPY CAUSE I THOUGHT I WOULD FAIL!!! thx GOD love u so much!!!!!! NITEZ ppl XXDD

2009-09-11T23:14:00.004+08:00

Hehe im so happy today cause everyone likes my Homemade CheeseCakeXD
im like on clouds nine now!
Anyway so many ppl keep asking me y i wanna bake cheesecake and my ans to that is bcos my sis bake one before or maybe not bake. She chilled it and it was damn nice.
Her cheeseCake is make with condense Milk and no need to bake de.
It was so creamy that i ate the whole tray well not at once though.
Everyday i will secretly cut one line of cheese cake and eat and she will not realize cause she chill the cheesecake le then nvr eat at all lol
So in the end i ate so much that left none le XD but she nvr scold me cause she also nvr eat so i eat lor
But the cake i bake is different from hers cause firstly, i bake it XD
and secondly i dun use condense milk.
My recipe is Dietry biscuits,butter, 2 rectangular box of Philedephia cream cheese , 125g of castor sugar, 226g of sourcream and 5 eggs plus 1 teaspoon of vanilla essense. After that i sort of cook strawberries,blueberries and kiwi plus three tablespoon of sugar in a pan until all the juice come out and wala my cheesecake is done.
Just cut one slice of it and pour some fruits plus the syrup on top and hahahahah its done. Kinda simple finish within three hours hahahahahah
Also i had help from my mother really glad she help cause i think i will mess up the kitchen and the reason she help cause she dun wan me to mess up the kitchen haha so ironic XD
After baking, kinda went to eat with my mum at a coffee shop and i brought the cake along cause thought my fren will come pick it up but then she haven come even after we ate finish so i carry back to my housee... so lame XD
But anyway just now they kinda called and tell me my cake was nice and that makes everything worthwhileXD
P.S
My first attempt was not as good as my first HAHAXD

2009-09-02T21:10:00.002+08:00

Wow today damn sianz...
Everybody is going home early and i have to go home so late!!!!!
reach home at 8.00....
go to school in the dark and come back at dark...
Haiz!!
wanna study but now like so sianzz
how to priortize time... so hard...

Anyway will try my best to study soon like maybe later??
Anyway Syltra rocks with her Black horse and cherry Tree!!!!
Nice song maybe go dl XD

2009-08-30T21:30:00.002+08:00

Ok been damn long since i updated so might as well do it now before chionging my HW.
Promos is comin in 40 oover days!!! kinda scared cause sort of noe something bad will happen to me T.T but dun feel like thinking about it.
Anyway i remember there was this time last week i think its tues... anyway i was seriously damn down till that point where i wanted to cry cause im not doing well in my subjects and fear retaining cause it will be a whole other episode next year. Wanted to talk to JiaWei then but she called me only after that day so like no mood to cry anymore.

Anyway today i went to do Toa Payoh to do the YRP for CIP and i met some students from my former sec sch. Too bad i dunno anyone and the teachers who accompanied are foreign to me. Anyway i did something like Flag Day and its damn fun to go out to the streets with Dexter and Nadzirah and we were like chionging to sell all the tuff we had in our hand. Well that only happen when we left 7 of them but anyway i was like the joke today cause i made lots of stupid mistakes..... i almost bought 2 popsicle for 2.40 when its only 1.20... I saw an old man washing something un der the rain and i thought its vegetables but its actually a rope.... i almost ran in the rain towards the other building when theres a sheltered walkway just beside me..... lol
HAha anyway its much more fun tehn when i did flag day in sec sch I LOVE MY INTERACT CLUB FRIENDS XD Fun to be with
Anyway after that we went to play Squash at Dex's house and so sorry Dex ;D just 5 mins into the game and i accidentally smack the ball and it flew and hit Dex's left eye :X sososososososoososososososo sorry!!!!!!! didnt do it on purpose!!!
This reminded me of lots of stuff
Sec 1 Played Rugby and hit a guys "brother"
Sec 1 Played VolleyBall and hit a guys nose and it bled
Sec4 Played Badminton Got smacked in the face and I bled T.T
Now Played Squash and I smack a ball into someone's eye!!!
luckyily its not serious BUT damn was so embarrassed and shocked and SRY!!!!
felt guilty after that but thx for forgiving me!! im Bad at sports so things happen....
But Overal today was quite fun especially at the Gym where we got chase out of the Gym by a security guard XD anyway :P
Looking forward to the next CIP we will be doing together XD Mus be fun!!!!!

2009-08-02T17:02:00.002+08:00

Yesterday i went to the training place in Ngee Ann poly for my CCA and i can say its a long journey!!!! even though its shorter then my trip to JC but i still prefer sitting on the bus and sleep rather then standing on the train and forcing myself awake....

SO as usual, i was the late one haha sorry guys XD i was late for 15 minute and luckily they did not get really mad cause i will be really guilty and we will be guilty late hahahahahaha ok.... So anyway when we arrive there, we were 15 mins late but luckily, the DP (District president is the late one haha phew..

I sort of find out that we are the only JC interactors there. The rest were Rotaracts and rotarians... We all feel so puny T.T but overall its really ok
I had fun and made 2 new friends however the shyness factor really kicks in everytime im alone with people i dunno. The training its done in such a way i split up with me friends and go solo in the training so i only start meeting my frens at lunch. i was kinda afraid but anyway i jus take it seriously and time passes so fast.
I was sort of alone in the room with the new friend i met being the instructor. Kinda lost when all the strangers came in. was scared so haha kinda become a loner after that but at lunch, i became normal again after i met my friends.

Though it was a long day there and i almost fell down while sleeping as i stand on the MRT but it was enriching and seriously the leaders of the CCA are suppose to go not me... but anyway i sort of had fun but still very tired.

2009-07-25T23:08:00.002+08:00

I really admire the egyptians after watching Discovery channel.
Egytians are human like us who lived in a distant time, however, living in a time without technology as advance as us, they are able to build amazing structures.
I still wonder how is it possible to build such large buildings at that time.
Also, hieroglyphs are so interesting.
Egyptians write their whole life story on walls as if they know someone will be reading them in the future and their story always consist of tragedy or some sinister secrets it is so intriguing.
Besides that, mummification is also use as if they know ppl will study them and the location of these mummies are in dungeons where it stretches widely. There are many routes, many traps and also many fake rooms to trick grave robbers. These works must have involved a lot time and tedious work.
Even with a large amount of manpower, i dun think they are able to build all but its not what it seems like...
Anyway its really amazing.
Wish i can go back in time to see how they did all this

2009-07-12T01:08:00.002+08:00

PW is said to get tougher in term 3 and seriously im afraid of it.
I realized that PW is not stress but the handling of the group members are the stressful part
Especially my group if i can say.
Not really scolding them or wat of offending them on WWW but jus wishing that they will be serious tomorro when doing project cause the problem that my group is facing is simply distraction. And the main distraction comes from one of my group mate.
By God's grace hope i can do finish my project and get A without dying.

Surprise

2009-07-10T23:54:00.003+08:00

Ok haha today is the last day of the first week of sch and i can say the holidays i had isnt enough to cover up my tiredness!!!
Everyday going to sch has completely drain me up lol so tired but anyway i wont think so nega about JC anymore jus go with it you know, move with the flow but still i will hate PE... I failed my NAPFA... so sad cant do pull up but WHO CARES i dun... really i dun... ... ..ok i care but i cant do so ya well moving on

Today, is my MT A level oral and i can say i fail le T.T dunno how to read alot of word and my conversation sucks man... if its english oral i can say i own the whole hall le lol haha shhh ahem...
Not really confident and the invigilators laugh at my conversation T.T so sad for me im hurt so deeply that it keeps bleeding and bleeding T.T lol

Anyway the happy thing today is My SG surprise me with a birthday cake and a birthday song!!! wow i was shocked, surprise, astounded and ...shocked.
did not really expect them to celebrate for me T.T so touch T.T lol haha thx SG 17 The cake was the delicious :D love chocolate cakes and that cake was huge ppl (becos celebrate 2 ppl birthday me and my classmate) i love the cake :D

Well i guess thats all for this week nth interesting happen jus that i has to take class and CCA photo and the rest was plain normal :D anyway yay haha ok nitez

Happy 17 B'Day

2009-07-07T23:18:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME HAHA yay :D though its gonna end soon le ....
Just wanna say thx to all the ppl who have send me birthday messages and or written in my birthday card haha i can feel the love :D
Also especially the ppl who send me at 12 plus and 1 plus am XD thx for making an effort to send so early!!!! haha

Ok so since today's my birthday, i feel really energetic but on this day 7 July is not really a good day to have my birthday celebrated on this day becos
1) I HAVE PE (Dun like)
2) First day of sch since holiday...
3) I got a surprise Econs test which i failed the moment i take it lol
4) Got back my maths marks and i got 10/70 (not really sad cause expected)
5) I was late for my science prac for half an hour T.T ( thought i got 1 hour break but its just half an hour)
6) i forgot to return library book and its due on my birthday lol
However the good thing about today is,
1) I received lots of messages that wish me happy birthday so im really happy
2) My maths lesson become from 1 hour to 15 mins lol
3) I get to have extra half an hour break
4) I get to attend Miss Aminah's tutorial haha lol i kinda miss her lessons.
5) i pass my econs essay 25/50 though jus pass but still happy
6) I noe that tmr no CCA
So in the end 6 nega plus 6 posi = Neutral. My day is normal today haha
Anyway i always look forward to my birthday every year cause i like the date 7 july a lot and also todays is the 17 year im officially in this world so feels kinda weird in a sense

Anyway thx for ppl who have msg me, facebook me, tell me straight in the face and MSN me haha thx so much. Gotta rush chinese compo le so bb

2009-07-06T11:32:00.002+08:00

ok so its the end of holiday and sch starts tomorro.
feeling really sianz now but anyway i lazy emo le haha

'So anyway wanted to write the chinese compo which is due last friday and the topic for the composition is true friends.
SO i was thinking of the starting line and i thought about lots of stuff and one that was really intriguing is that our life journey compose of tons of choices.
Its like when we were born, all doors leading to different lives are open but as we grow up, we make choices, one by one, the doors close until we make the final decision that leads us till we die.

I thought of this because of the chinese compo as we make friends throughout our life journey and that different paths leads to different friends so if i went to poly instead of JC in the first place, i would not have met the JC ppl. Its kinda a funny story.

Also,i remembered about sec 2 when i was choosing our classes, i wanted to go to 3E1 however, i went to 3E4 because of some stupid reason which i will not say and even if u ask me i still will not say haha ok.... but anyway in that calss i manage to met interesting friends and ppl and it kinda set the trigger bout me thinking if i was in 3E1, will i have much more fun then i was in in 3E4 and most importantly if i was not in 3E4, i will not be able to bring three classmate to my church haha funny... still dunno how i did it.

Anyway the more important thing that i should ask everyone is that are u walking on the path designated for u? and of course make the right choices because every choice u make determines where u go. Doors are closing as we speak :D

2009-06-24T23:34:00.002+08:00

Its been 4 months plus le and i can tell u all that i really dun wanna go JC anymore and some might know, i wanna transfer out of JC soon or maybe stop goin to JC after this june holidays.
Im really feeling very miserable right now
I thought after O's i will be happier but i guess tats not what i thought it will be.
Why mus i be on the edge everytime....
Talking to my CG leader, she told me that i should jus follow where my heart leads me too and i wanna really do game designing..
but..
why mus my mum be so demoralizing to such an extent that she jus makes me lose faith that im able to do it...
Why cant she be like the whites parents, always encouraging their children until they have such an high esteem.
For me i think i wrote it before, i scored a 250 over 1000 for my self esteem test...
i really hope i somehow jus die somewhere now cause i dun really know where i wanna be now..
I really wish i could jus read the book of my life now..
Maybe i can see where i should be and what should i do now...
then i will not be vex now..

2009-06-01T22:40:00.003+08:00

Ok today is the start of the first day of june holiday lesson :(
sad cause i wanna sleep...
Anyway haha i wanna skip right to the relationship module that i attended today at 3.10.
i actually find this cause so hilarious that i laught ill my stomach hurts.
My instructor is damn funny but she is only a relief cause our class instructor not feeling well.
Hope that instructor remains sick opps haha
Anyway her name is candice and she is really so dramatic and i totally love her teaching
i also learn alot today cause it relates to me more haha self esteem.
I remembered when i was in sec 4 i took the self esteem test and i scored 250 out of 1000 so i have low self esteem. haha funny

Some things that she said really hit the spot for me.
For example, she let us play a short game of staring into a person's eye for 1 min and telling ur partner about ur strength and weaknesses separately.
For me, its not that hard cause im with sort of my closer friends in JC so we were playing the whole time but instead of asking about strength and weaknesses, we started with hows ur day, wat subject u taking and we jus talk all the crap and sometimes we feel uncomfortable that we look other ways plus laughing like crazy. This game is sort of to test ur self esteem. Really if u ask me to stare at a person eyes and talk i will feel so uncomfortable that i will look somewhere else.

Also, she talk about us living everyday in our beliefs and this affects ur action with affect the results and thus self esteem.
For example, in my case, i belief that my friends in JC will judge me or dun wanna be my friend so i sort of created this barrier to protect myself and because of this, im not able to make many friends and thus because of this action it leads me to having less friends which further enforce my beliefs of people dun wanna be my friend and thus lowering my self esteem.
I remembered one time during maths lesson in LT 3, my SG friends invite me to sit with them and some couple of them also start inviting me to sit with them and i was thinking " Wa why suddenly wanna sit with me, surely something is not right"
After that, i decline sitting with them.
I just feel that maybe because of my lower self esteem, it led me to this kind of situation where i do not have and friends in JC or maybe less friends in JC.

Candice also said that now you know your problem that you can change because beliefs are thoughts and thought can be changed. I really hope i can open up but thje fear that i have really makes it hard for me to do so....

SHe also gave us many examples on how our lives are made by our beliefs.
One common example. When u see two girls holding hands u will say its normal but when u see two boys holding hands, you will say something is wrong.
She also quoted the example of girls going to the toilet as a bunch is normal while guys going in a gang may seem normal but if two guys then something is wrong.
SHe told us of a funny situation she encountered in a sch where one girl wanted to go to the bathroom and she ask permission. After Candice said that that girl is allowed to go, 5 other girls also stand up and followed.
"WAIT i only let you go how come 5 others follow you"
"We always go together"
"Why"
unexpected answer...
"TO give each other moral support"
*shock and funny*
"So u mean like one person doing her business and the 5 others standing round her saying come on come on you can do it come on "
haha funny
Anyway she told us many more funny stuffs which maybe i say its not that funny but shes awesome!!!!
I seriously hope my instructor dun come tmr then i can go her class de :D

2009-05-22T17:57:00.002+08:00

OK yesterday was a little too much emo for me just feel so sad and all but today i feel kinda fine and actually happy cause its the end of school week and can rest for 1 days
My stamina from 100% on monday to 80% on tuesday 55% on wednesday to 30% on thursday to 10% on friday
SO TIRED!!!
No time for leisure...

Next week is the start of all tests and is so sianzz gotta study again..not like i dun study but study also always fail... whats the point...
I wanna play!!!
Hate JC
no life
but then sometimes im happy but only when My Econs teacher is in the happy mode because when shes happy she crack hilarious jokes. Funny

Anyway hope my brain capacity can exceed...

2009-05-21T21:28:00.002+08:00

Im so emo now... so depress....i jus feel so empty inside that i jus want to be in a vegetable state where i do not have to think about anything...
I know that i said before that i will work hard in JC but things are getting to tedious for me and sometimes i jus can't take it anymore. Everyone looks like they are having fun whether its in JC or poly and im all alone here, waiting to be discovered.
I just hate myself for being so close up. I dun even know why im like this..
I only remembered when i got my PSLE slip, i went around to look at which sch everyone is going to and i found out that only one of them is going to be in the same sch as me and i feared that i will not be able to make any friends.
I remembered the first day and the next consecutive days i was all alone in the sch, not having the guts to talk to everyone and i jus felt so alone. Nobody can understand that kind of feeling that i have.
However, luckily, i met some friends which click with me after a few weeks and that is how i survived sec sch.
But now, the friends that i can click with in pri sch to sec sch and now to JC has become lesser and lesser and now, its close to zero!!!
I know that many ppl always see me alone in sch and they may say i enjoy being alone but to tell the truth, i dun enjoy it at all. Nobody is born a loner however our differences has made some loners.
Sometimes i just want to blend in but my presence jus give an awkard atmosphere that i totally give up on trying.

How did i get myself to think about this in the first place?
Well, i wanted to watch a movie tomorro with my friends but guess what?? i cant find any.
The friends that i go out with are so limited and now i got no one to go out to have fun with. Funny right? A boy 16 years old with no friends.
Now, i also questioned myself whether im going to church because i really believe in God or i jus want to have friends and have a sense of belonging.
I dunno anything now....so confused....

I hope i land in a coma soon then, i do not have to think about this anymore. I alone in my own world jus sitting there.

2009-05-07T22:13:00.002+08:00

Ok since its been so long since i have blogged, i might as well revive it again!!
Well actually im just giving myself excuses to slack off haha dun really wanna do my econs homework. But also, i have lots of things to say and i really wanna write it out. Well, blogging its a way to release myself and it lets me be myself:) Though im always afraid to show people who i really am, i dun mind showing people what i am here:D

Anyway since last wednesday, our GP teacher has changed!! YAY for me i guess lol but maybe sad for the rest. Im glad that i have a new GP teacher is because i find that the first GP teacher was biased and irritating though his kind but more towards the girls... I dun blame him since his a guy and guys a flirtatous or whatever anyway my new GP teacher is super awesome i guess. im gonna ACE my PW haha since shes the best PW teacher :D

AFter school on wednesday, i had interact club and i kinda find out im more open in interact club then in any of my classes haha love the members there cause their kind and easy to talk to, Dunno why but being there seems so much better then being in my SG or CTG. MEt new friends that i got quite close with i think haha anyway they are awesome.

Lastly, everytime when i go home from school, im always in a crowded bus and its quite annoying. Have to stand for half an hour,,,, but during that time, as i listen to one of my handphone song, it kinda played to 1000 no kotoba which is also called 1000 words. Listening to that song jus makes me think of final fantasy x and x-2 and an iea jus struck me. I kinda wanna write a fantasy kinda book. I did that before but stopped at about chapter 3 because i find that my english is not really good and I DUNNO HOW TO WRITE A BOOK!! but anyway, jus a synopsis of what i was planning on writing about.
Its about this guard who was sent to guard this maiden until her scension ceremony. As the guard's wife died in the past, he became completely shutdown, unable to express any of his feeling to anyone. As he was walking past the bishop's room, he overheard what they will be doing with the maiden. Some cruel stuff which i will not say and this will put the maiden's life in danger. Though he did not really care about it at first but after one incident when he saw that the maiden looked like his deceased wife, he felt obliged to protect her because of his regret of not being able to protect his late wife. After a long time of whatever stuff they did, meet new characters, fight last boss and whatever adventures later, he felt that he is able to put aside his feelings for his wife and start to love the maiden but then things started to get worse.

Well its something like that though did not really think into the details but kinda got the concept there haha, Hope i have time to write this story, i will be so proud of it and im looking forward to design the characters :D haha so long nvr draw le hope i dun get rusty

2009-04-27T22:38:00.002+08:00

Poly life have started and they seem so relax!!!!
haiz how i wish im relax too...
My sis even got the time to go and watch a movie.
How long has it been since i watch a movie....
long long time ago...

I really wish time would turn back to the day i was choosing which poly courses i wanna go to
I wish my mum did not stop me from going to game designing course.
Maybe i would have been very relax now.

In JC, u got to fight with homework, stress and sleepinesszZZZz

I still remembered the day when i left sec sch, i said i didnt wanna come back here again but come to think of it, i really wanna go back.
The school curriculum seems long when im still in sec sch but now, i dun even noe why i complain so much

I wan go back sec sch!!!!

Relationships

2009-04-20T23:15:00.002+08:00

In school nowadays, people have been talking about relationships and stuff and its not like the older days where guys talk about games and girls talk about nothing important.
Is people nowadays more interested in the opposite sex??
Where ever i go, im bound to hear a few people talking about relationships and even in schools, there are couples... In Cg, people also like to discuss about relationships.
I still dun get whats so great in discussing and involving urself in a relationship. I kinda find it quite lame and annoying.
First of all, we got to care about what our spouse feel and plan what to do next.
Sounds like a lot of work.

I prefer to be simple and carefree.

For my CG mates, its kinda funny when it comes to relationship and stuff.
(No offence to any CG mates that is reading :D)
Ok so theres one guy who make a list on what his future girlfriend must not have as in the bad habits.
Making a list is not bad, it makes u know which target u wanna target but its making me feel that girls are like a good that has to be inspect for faults before selling them in the market.
And we have a relationship doctor in our CG too... because he has been in more relationships then us, he has become the love doctor.
Its kinda boring for me when he starts talking about relationships and stuff and to my surprise, everyone is interested in his relationship talk....
Boys want to know how to get girls &
Girls wanna know how to get boys.
The world is turning topsy turvy.

Love at first sight is also common in some people and i find that love at first sight does not exist at all. Why?
When u look at a lets say a beautiful girl and you say thats love at first sight...
Thats horny at first sight because u feel that u are in love just by judging by looks but when u get to dating, u will find ur love at first sight to be loveless in the second sight.. Are u in love with a person just by their looks?

Jeff Dunham, a famous comedian ventriloquist said one sentence in his comedy act that really makes me laugh. When you get married, you will say we will love each other till death do us apart but as days or years pass by, the may death do us apart becomes a goal for most husbands and wives.

Relationship is a complex thing and its not easy to handle as u have to invest ur time and money into it. Though it maybe sweet at first, it does not mean it will last. Especially for school couples. One day you will find that the freshness is not there anymore and loves go bye bye.

True love however can withstand time and tide but rarely i see it happen in real life or maybe for now.. True love only comes when u and ur spouse have face many difficulties together and because of this difficulties, you learn to love and appreciate each other more. However the true love that i see are usually in games only.
Just imagine you fighting monsters to save a damsel in distress, rescue her from evil warlocks and face a life and death situation. How can ur basic love not be refine into true love.

2009-04-16T23:50:00.003+08:00

Its close to saturday le and finally i can rest well.
Didnt get too much sleep this week cause i was doing my PI!!!

Speaking about my PI, i did it 3 times le and its still wrong so i gave up and dun wan do le... theres no marks for it though
Anyway got to study for my maths test which is like TODAY!!!
The ques were hard man....
dunno if i can pass or not.
But hope that i can!!!

So far, in JC, i failed all my subject which is so rare for me cause i nvr fail until like that!!! Especially in Sec Sch...
In sec ssch, i feel that im growing smarter and smarter but in JC i feel like im growing more stupid everyday haha dunno why
Wierd though...

I was deprived of sleep for the whole four days as i was saying earlier and i usually doze off in some classes.
Unless u can make me laugh, i go sleep le haha
But usually i try to keep myself awake by pretending im energetic but it often fails....
i even start drinking coffee till im almost immune to it haha

Also, today when we were having our GP class, Our teacher kinda ask if who is thinking about going to poly.
Hearing this just reminds me about wanting to go poly and study game designing.
I kinda thought about this issue for quite sometime thinking should i give up now, after 3 months in school...

I keep thinking am i walking on the wrong path you know..
Maybe im suppose to go poly but maybe im also suppose to go JC..
Its really confusing for me but i have decided to stay so im working hard for it though i may not like it but at least i can say to you, "I TRIED!!!!"
haha
but then, after reading this story on my Cell group post, it kinda sets me thinking and make me wanna strive even harder.
One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality...
I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said.

"Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I t ook very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water.

The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor.
Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.

"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit."

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."

He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots."

"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others." He said.

"The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful.." "Your time will come", God said to me.
"You will rise high"

"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and brought back this story.
I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never, Never, Never Give up.

ANyway my GP teacher is really awesome cause being an ex YJcian, he knows what we are going through and is really understanding towards us. HE even let us by food from the canteen to the classroom and eat. He even let us have free periods to study for our tests. Such a rare 22 year old teacher is hard to find these days but too bad his leaving quite soon. Maybe around June to study at the university. He wants to be a lawyer that means he loves to argue haha weird.... but anyway hope we get i GP teacher as kind as him :D

2009-04-11T15:13:00.002+08:00

Good Friday is officially over!!!! and now its GOOD SATURDAY!!!! lol
haha ok well kinda sad because theres no more holidays that i can look forward to in the next week and the next and the nextand the next.....

But still i enjoy it. Easter Drama was awesome and there is a repetition of the crucification of Jesus Christ. I feel kinda sad about it though i have seen that part in last year's easter drama but there is always something new.
For example when Jesus and another guy who was convicted of mass killing was trialed to see which one should freed and which one should be crucified, the mass killer was released and on the day of the crucification, he said something that really touches me. "It should have been me up there not you, you died in my place..."
Hearing this, a mental image jus forms in my mind.
I saw myself as the killer kneeling in front of the judge while jesus on my right.
Though i have committed a heinous crime, i was freed whereas, Jesus died willingly for me on the cross.
He just smiled at me.
Really touching for me.
I guess thats what Easter is all about, remembering who died for us on the cross and resurrected on the third day

2009-04-05T14:34:00.002+08:00

Days and days have past and i really miss my friends from sec sch but cant really meet them to go out for movies or just hang out somewhere.
Too much homework to do and im BROKE!! haha
yup im broke FINALLY!!
Kinda spent my money on food in JC whenever i can cause when u got nth to do, you eat
and thats how my money goes flying away...

Anyway cant wait for easter service to come next week!!! because theres a drama skit on THE FINAL SOLUTION: A new messiah.
Every year on special occasions, the drama team will always put up a very SUPER PROFESSIONAL AND FUNNY skit its seriously awesome to see.
For me, i think its better then the dramas on Tv.
I wonder what they got their ideas from.............

So anyway i should be doing my homework now and im not really doing it... not really interested in doing any homework these days...
just feel like slacking there.

Sometimes while slacking, i will just think about what should i do whenever i have breaks....and usually i will just go to the library and do my homework. Its kinda boring... dun really like scholl for that.
Haiz...
The issues i have been facing in JC is that i dun really click with any friends there and of course secondly is my studies which is like SO HARD!!!
Luckily i have a friend like Rudhra who can be said is my best friend in JC because she is easy to talk to and because of her, i know friends like Tereza and Sam. They are cool and fun to be with. Really wish i can change SG but its not possible to go to their class already. Tereza is running for the student council and i really like her motto. Be Bold. Vote Blonde. haha interesting.
You definitely get my vote for that.

Its kinda boring in my SG as everyone sort of has their own group where t hey have their small talks or whatsoever but im groupless. kinda sad...I wonder if all of them are avoiding me.
One example that really sort of depress me alot is last thursday where we have to go to the library to do our GP project and as i walked into the library first, i wanted to choose a place where everyone could sit together so i chose a table that is long for everyone to sit but everyone went to the back tables to sit, leaving me alone there. Kinda depress about that but if they really dun like me then whats the point of trying so if i have to work alone this 2 years then i guess gotta bear with it.
Though it maybe tough but i will always remember this. "Ëven if everyone deserts you, God will never desert you. When you think you are alone, you are not because God is just sitting right beside you." Its enough for me.

2009-03-21T00:14:00.002+08:00

O man wish i can become a game designer...
These past few days, a just have the urge to play Final Fantasy x-2.
The storyline is rally touching from the beginning of Final Fantasy X to X-2.
Yuna changed alot because she wanted to find her love Tidus back.
From a summoner, she lost all her powers and became a normal person.
Finding a sphere which contains data of the past, she saw someone that look like Tidus and she immediately set off to find more clues on ways to find Tidus back.

Playing this game really re-ignited my passion for game designing.
Im not saying that i did not have interest but my parent object because they think in this line of job, you will have no future.

Anyway i dun really care if i have a job or not if im a game designer.
I want to create games that are like final fantasy style.
Creating characters and injecting life into them.
Creating a past that was never there.
Giving each character a special trait that makes them unique.
O God if you can, please help me in fufiling my dreams.
I really wanna do it.
Though it may be tough, i willing to work towards it.
Give me a target in my life cause now, im just a walking dreamless man.

2009-03-18T13:37:00.003+08:00

Back to blogging after a long time and thats because my com crashed all of a sudden... it keeps restarting own its on until one day, it jus cant open...
Anyway in JC for me is a really tiring experience as everyday i will have lots of homework to do and i have to revise, read the newspaper and i simply do not have as much leisure time as last time..
Going to Jc for me is really taking a big step and that i might not even be able to continue walking along the path.
2 years may seem short but everyday its tedious. Besides trying to struggle to stay awake, i have to cope with the long hours of studying.
As you all know my CTG was split int SGs and i really cant communicate with my friends in SG.
I just feel that they are not that kind of friends that i will go along with.
Its really tough to be in school with no one to talk too but luckily at somedays, i get to meet back in my CTG where i get to be close to some of my friends that i feel comfortable with.
By the way, my China buddy has left school to study at NUS.
Kinda miss him though... no one to help me in my chinese T.T haha ok ok jus kidding
Anyway looking forward to the Hotpot cause i have never eaten a hotpot.
Kinda excited about that.

Eventhough JC life is really tiring, Im really trying to cope well in it and also if i have never entered JC, i would not have met so many friends especially all the China buddies!!!

Really hope i will be able to cope with my studies soon and ACE the whole level haha
Well... a man can dream dreams can't they?

2009-03-04T23:24:00.002+08:00

Today is my third day with my buddy and it seems like the longer we are together, our topics to talk about grow lesser and lesser.
Also to clarify, my buddy's the same age as me!!!! though his bigger then me by 14 days only lol
haha find it shocking cause i thought he was older then me.
He have already entered uni at the age of 17 this year...
WAT AM I DOIN IN JC!!!
no fair they got to uni at 17 and im still in JC...

Anyway today's schedule was kinda relaxing cause only got 4 subjects on.
After school the DECOR TEAM gather to discuss about how to decorate our clubbing room and we are serious in doing it cause we still went to survey the room haha
We talked about what should be place where and what materials we need.
Its really fun to do decor but im scared im not doing it well.
Anyway im gonna try my best!!!
Last night Li Wei even said to me anyhow decor can le O.O
that shocked me...
But to state it clear. I like to do things to my best ok except for homework haha.
When we discuss about the decor, my teammates would be talking about thing that are no link to the decor like what music they will play and inviting VIPs to our clubbing room...
But anyway we manage to complete about 90% of the planning so its ok.
After discussing, i went to my CCA and it was really boring...
We played a game like hide and seek where we have to find a hidden person and once we found him or her, we have to stick with him or her until everyone finds him or her.
The last one to find him or her will do a forfeit which by the way is the chiku cha thingy.
We were suppose to split up in twos to find and luckily we cheated lol
We go in 3 pairs and im so lucky cause they found the person hiding and came to look for us T.T
So touchingT.T
ok so anyway after that we played double wacko and then went home.
I walked to the bus stop with Rudhra and on the way, we bought bubble tea!!!
i cant live without bubble tea!!!!
lol
Anyway we saw her friend at the bus stop and I found out that Rudhra has been telling her friend Theresa how nice i am
Im so touched that someone thinks im nice :D haha ok...
ANyway Rudhra is just like Chloe. SO cheerful all the time.
Shes really a very good friend to me.
I think without her in my class, i will still be the quiet guy :D
Anyway i heard that her uncle is buying all her coupons for CVD!!
wow so supportive!!
And my Cg not supportive T.T lol haha nvm u all dun buy its fine.
I go find my sec sch friends :D

2009-03-02T22:39:00.003+08:00

Ok so today's the first day that my China buddy will follow me everywhere i go. Kinda scared cause i dunno how to entertain him.
As u all noe im not really the talkative type so ....
but anyway i tried talking to him and i found out lots of things about him.
First of all the pronunciation of his name lol i said it wrongly *embarass*
His 18 this year.
Staying in Singapore for 10 years after this 6 months.
FULL MARKS FOR MATHS!!!!
wow man his awesome.
His so smart and jus sitting next to him makes me feel so weak.
He even ask me if i noe wat my national anthem means cause i sing in malay and lol i said i dunno XD so ambarrassing.
I dun really know Singapore's culture XXXXDDDDD and haha today he get to taste the power of our Econs teacher Ms Aminah.
Haha she left a very bad impression to all the china students but thats how she is. After school today, we went to celebrate one of my classmates birthday.
I invited my buddy along cause dun wan him to walk alone to the MRT.
WE sang Happy Birthday songs in two different languages then there was another class celebrating other peoples birthday too and without knowing it, we were dragged into a competition of who sing the loudest birthday song haha funny.
111 bought 2 cakes from Swensen for our Birthday girl Jolyn!!!
wow seriously the cake is delicious.
but i still dunno how much i need to pay.... o.O
After eating the cake, there was a smash cream onto ur face game and ppl start running around with their hands full of cake cream and smashing it in ppl's faces. Im proud to say IM NOT HIT!!!! haha well anyway i dun wan anyone to aim me :D So in the end, mostly everyone has cake smolthered on their faces and shirt and IM CLEAN!!! My classmate even attack our orientation leader from JC2, leaving her face full of cream haha.
But to our misfortune, it started to rain so heavily.
Thunders start to sound and its really scary...
I hate Thunders...
I offered my umbrella to one of my classmate.
Rudhra and I shared one umbrella and my buddy use his own.
On the way to Yishun MRT station, Rudhra and I were shouting but not angrily at each other saying " Ahhh u are not covering me!!! My shirt is wet, my shoes is wet, ahhh so cold" lol we were sort of complaining to each other and blaming each other without anger.
In the end when we reach Yishun MRT station, the back of my shirt is totally wet. My bag is wet. My pant is totally wet and there is some water in my shoes. Its is cold!!!! But anyway Rudhra gave me a packet of MnM chocolates to thank me for lending her the umbrella though did not help to shelter much lol
YAY anyway i took the bus home and i did not dare to lie on the chair cause the back of my shirt is wet and if i touch the chair, i will feel the coldness so i sat straight for 30 mins and by the time i reach Tampines Inter, i was freezing cold. It was a fun experience getting soaked inthe rain haha but i hope it will never happen again. Not until next week cause i only left a pair of shoes left!!! Anyway this is a vid of My friends Jolyn's birthday

2009-02-25T22:58:00.003+08:00

WOW today im so excited cause I GOT TO MEET MY CHINA BUDDY!!!!
Well actually i did not know that they have arrived in Singapore.
I was just tol to go to a briefing.
When i see that all the China students were there, i was shocked and sort of excited cause well it looks fun:D
When the teacher ask us (the YJcians) to introduce ourselves, we were suppose to go and shake hands with our China Buddies and also give them a hug...
Lol didnt wanna hug
But anyway as i introduce myself, my buddy stands up and we went to shake each others hands and he sort of hug me so well.. i hug him back.
I was planning on shaking hands only but anyway.
His name is Jin Hui.
At first when i see his name from afar, it looks like Jia Hui so i thought it was a girl even though im puzzled but its a male so yup...
Kinda scared cause i dunno how to interact ewith him but in the end, his quite sociable and nice to talk to.
His older then me by 2 to 3 years old too.
Kinda cool.
We were suppose to show them around the school after the briefing so we went to the Wednesday Espresso area where we watch a audition of a guy playing the electric guitar.
After that, we went to see the Squash hall and the Hall and after that, we went underground to the table tennis area.
The China male students were like ok...
Then one of them suddenly said that he wants to have spar with the coach and everyone goes woohoo!!!!
After him, two other boys also went up and challenge him.
The battle was intense and i was telling my friend saying ok.... i think we can camp here le cause its like every guy wanna spar with the coach. Kinda fun anyway.
After that we make our way to Lecture Hall 2 where a few guitarist were practicing and we ask them to play a song for the China students.
As awkard as that sounds, they played a tune and everyone goes woohoo!!
We left for the canteen after the song and sort of tour around.
As it was raining, we decided to stay in school a little longer.
We brought them to the library and some of them were shocked to find their hottest TV show was displayed in our library.
Its called Soldier sortie.
They ask me how to pronounce sortie and i dunno!!! lol
That's embarassing
SO anyway we move on to see the classrooms and we ended up in a classroom where the door is open. So we asked them to take a seat and we all introduce ourselves.
SOme of the China students, after introducing themselves, came out to sing because well we pulled them out !!!!
Well since they like to sing so why not man. ENCORE ENCORE ENCORE!!!
haha its fun and we sort of disgrace ourselves cause when we speak to them in chinese, our chinese were broken and its so embarrassing to make that kind of mistake in front of Chinese superb people.
Four of my friends also showed them our YJC couple dance.
Though they didnt dance really well but come on who can remember all the steps.
I almost forget everything :D
Haha anyway i enjoyed spending time with them.
Kinda feel really good.
I also talked to my buddy alot.
Well he started talking then i continued on and on and on.
He told me that he arrived in Singapore at the beginning of the year and i was startled because i thought that the beginning of the year is a few months ago but actually its just four weeks.
He also told me that his returning in June and he studies at NUS during his stay in Singapore followed by the other China students.
They jus sort of visit YJC for two weeks before going back to NUS and studying till june before leaving for China.
The frightening part was that he says he sch end at around 7.40 PM!!!
I am already grumbling about the school releasing us at 5.10PM and they can hold on till 7.40...
I admire them and im really impress by him.
HIs so easy to get along :D
Anyway related photos and pictures will be posted on facebook but im having a hard time uploading the videos...

2009-02-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

Man...today im so sad cause i got 3 out of 10 for my Econs test...
Really dun like econs because i dun really care about world issues..
If u tell me that the world is crashing down into a blackhole and everyone's gonna die, i will jus look at u and smile.
Anyway tomorro, there will be a retest on Econs and must score full marks...

So sleepy the whole day today in JC.
Kinda doze off in most of the classes..
And some of my classmates saw me dozing off to cause my head was like bopping down then up then down then up.
But anyway cant blame me.
Theres just so much homework and im easily distracted..
Now for example... i should be studying econs but instead im blogging...
Lol haha ok..

2009-02-22T01:24:00.004+08:00

Its saturday again and im so tired..
Waking up at 5am every monday to friday morning is really draining the life out of me.
BUT!!!
I will try to push myself to the limit.
I have to be strong like the mountain:D

In school theres sort of an interaction thingy coming up in a few weeks time.
Some China students will be in our school for 2 weeks i think and im kinda excited about it cause some students will be chosen to accompany them until they return to China.
For your information, IM IN THE NOMINEES!!!
Im kinda afraid i dunno how to interact with them...
BUT!! i will try if im selected..
It should be fun!!

Anyway today i really enjoyed my time in church and i LOVE MY CELLGROUP!!!!
I just enjoy being with them.
N397...
brings back lots of memories right from the first day i came to church.
Anyway after service we went to T3 to eat and yay i love going to the airport to eat cause there is aircon, the food is good and i love to see aeroplanes cause it makes me feel like im going to another country now :D
I really wanna go Japan....
SOmetimes i wish i was Japanese but if im in Japan then i will not be able to meet all the great friends i have now.
Anyway at T3,
I ate Tom Yum noodles and it was seriously good !!!!
The Tom Yum was Superb!!
After that i ate Strawberry kisses hehe kinda nice
In the process of eating our desserts, we start taking photos of each other and wow today is the only day that i did not reject taking pictures :D
We take pictures from T3 to T2 and we really had fun talking and laughing at the pictures we have taken :D
Hope the fun will nvr end.
Wanted to upload some pics but wierdly, i cant...
SOmething wrong with the bloggy uploading picture thingy...
Anyway time for bed!!!
Learn to appreciate ur bed cause you will want it when u go to JC.;)

2009-02-18T18:48:00.002+08:00

Ok so today its my first time at my CCA and its so boring.
O ya by the way im in Interact club and i really wanna join a sports CCA cause its so fun to play in sports.
I got rejected for Tennis cause i did not go for trials and also track and field....
I did not noe got trials in the first place...
Interact club is basically doing CIP, planning stuffs and so on..
Its so boring.
I wan a CCA thats fun..
but anyway rudhra told me that her appeal was successful so she will be attending Interact Club with me YAY i wont be lonely:D
Anyway before that i had lessons and as usual 111 splits.
I was with Ren Hao for some periods and seriously i dunno how to communicate with him cause he looks so fierce and he likes to act cold...
Today when Ren Hao, Raymond and me went for a 10 mins toilet break, we were talking about climbing towards the roof of a block and suddenly Ren Hao was like smiling so happily and we thought he wanted to climb but i was wrong...
He was so happy to see Shan..
Never saw him that happy in class...
Anyway maybe we just don't click i guess..
In chinese class today was the most fun part for me cause Stephanie, Darren, Edmund, Andrea and Zi Hao is in the same class with me so at least wont be that bored.
The funny thing was we all trick the teacher into letting us leave 30 mins earlier..
Today the chinese teacher was like asking us to write our chinese name and also introduce urself but after 1 hour, he said "Is it time to let u all off" then Darren says ya followed by the rest of the 111s. To make it clear, i had no part in this. Im innocent *shining eyes*
So i got an extra 30 mins break today :D
Anyway i spent most of my breaks in the library doing my homework.
Feel kinda sad cause i saw everyone had at least 1 friend with them and im all alone.
Guess i just dun have much confidence to talk to anyone but im glad i have friends like Jolyn, Rudhra, Shan, Cassandra, Edmund, Anna and Darren. Sometimes they will jus talk to me when im alone.
Anyway i really got to push myself more!!!
In JC its really tough without friends to give u moral and physical support.
But usually it takes me a few months to adapt...
Wonder if i will be close to anyone?

2009-02-16T19:33:00.002+08:00

woah ok yesterday did not blog so i will write two blogs today.

Sunday
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Man! Today i was really tired cause i got to wake up early to go to City Harvest Church today.
Met Max for breakfast at Mac and after we ate finish, Wui an came and we went off to church.
The pastor continues with wat is the 5 basic needs of a woman and a man.
For woman, the second thing is Conversation and the third thing is Honesty and openess.
For the men, the second thing is Recreational Companionship and the third thing is Attractive Spouse.
This is really interesting.
Can't wait for the last 2 more basic needs.
ANyway since its Valentines day weekend so the pastor ask every married couple to come to the front of the stage to renew their Vows and to exchange rings too (provided by the church).
This moment is so sweet as they all recite their pledges.
Seriously u can feel the love in the air.
I simply love this kind of moments.
The pastor even ask all the married couples to kiss each other for 15 sec lips to lips lol haha funny for all the singles to watchbut nevertheless, sweet.
After Church, went to Wui an's house and play Game of Life and Monopoly.
After that we ate her mum's super delicious guo tiao with lots of chilli that almost burn my stomach!!!
But its seriously good :D
After that, we went to her room to watch Dead silence and Love Guru.
Dead silence was not that scary even though i keep putting my fingers in my ears to block the sound out.
I just dun like the parts where they will shock you suddenly.
But come to think of it, thats the point of horror movie...
Love Guru was really funny especially with all the acronyms he use.
His facial expression contributes lots towards the movies.
Its a must watch!!
Some acronyms:
B.I.B.L.E
Basic
Instructions
Before
Leaving
Earth

D.R.A.M.A
Distraction
Regression
Adjustment
Maturation
Action

L.O.V.E
Lead
Organize
Value
Evolve

Assume
Ass-u-me

V.I.C.T.I.M
Vicious
Insidous
Cognitions
That
Impede
Maturity

C.O.C.K
Clarity
Organization
Charm
Knowledge

B.L.O.W.M.E
Be
Loving
and
Openhearted
With
My
Emotions

Nowhere
Now here

GURU
Gee
you
are
you

Intimacy
Into me I see

A word of wisdom lol
To know something is good, to do something is God

Seriously its really funny.
He also wrote "books" with funny titles
Example:
Stop hitting yourself, stop hitting yourself, why are you still hitting yourself.
Its a must watch!!!

Monday
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Haiz today im very sad cause our class is gonna be split into Subject groups so i dun get to see all my friends le...
Just when i settling into a new environment with friends that i can talk to, we all get into different classes...
Not fair...
I wish we can study together T.T

2009-02-15T00:36:00.002+08:00

Happy Valentines DAY!!
though it is alrdy 12.37 am.....
Anyway i had so much fun today With 4 of my friends from YJC!
We started off by wanting to watch a movie but the tickets for all movies were selling fast so we decided to go and eat instead.
We went from Dhouby Gaut to Marina Square at City Hall and straight away went to the Yuki something there but there were lots of ppl there alrdy so we made a sort of reservation thingy at we can only get a table at around 8.30 to 9.00 and now its like only 5 plus....
So we went to the arcade to play and each game need at least one fifty cent coin.
Its kinda fun playing the shooting games and racing car game (although not good a it)....
I also found out that i have lots of 50 cent coins in my wallet.
We played for about 1 or 2 hours before we were almost broke lol
No lah not broke but dun wanna waste money le cause later still have to pay for the buffet thingy.
At that point of time, i feel that at least i understand more about 4 of my classmates.
Even though im quiet but im a good listener ok.
I noe wats going on even without talking.
We walked around and look at this and look at that, trying to waste more time.
At this time, i feel really guilty cause i promise Jiawei i will go to church but didnt... and i jus feel so wierd inside but its not like i will always fellowchip with my YJC ppl so if got time i will go de:D
Anyway the buffet was great and we were so bloated after being force to change to the ice-cream thingy cause the last service was at around 10.00 so we gotta eat fast.
The Ice-cream thingy was really fun to play.
We started by pouring two cups of chocolate ice cream but it takes so long to freeze the ice-cream so after eating the chocolate ice-cream, we jus pour all different flavour of ice-cream into the tray thingy and mix it all together.
They even put a little bit of Vodka (no tast anyway)
The colour of the ice-cream was disgusting.
It looked like shit but despite the looks, it taste pretty good.
In the meantime while we were waiting for the ice-cream to freeze, we played the number game and the person who lose have to drink one mouthful of disgusting blended drinks (There was zapple, coke, durian ice-cream, yam ice-cream and other soda drinks. Its disgusting but anyway the more disgusting the more fun wat so anyway we played and im the second person who lose the most and when i drank, i feel like fainting cause the durian tast is so strong and the coloration wat seriously disgusting.
Brownish yellow....
like urine plus shit lol
After that we went our separate ways and i head to bugis to meet my cell friends.
Its always great to see them and i got back my bag that i bought and left behind at my friend's house.
Hope theres another day we can have fun like today but anyway JC life will be stress and busy in the coming days so i guess its study time!!!

2009-02-12T23:06:00.002+08:00

Lectures have become harder in JC today and the stress starts to set in.
Maths have become more complicated.
Chem now involves algebra.
Physics is a little difficult.
Econs is very demanding.
Gp involves lots of reading.
Haiz...
Im not that study type of person and if i were to change, it will take lots of time to do that especially from a Gamer to a person who studies.
Eventhough having lectures with a few hundred over ppl seems fun, it's often hard to get what the teacher says and if i got a question, its hard to ask the teacher.
I guess its time to be independent and learn by myself.
JiaWei often tells me that we study is because for ourselves and not for the teachers.
If we don't know how to do, we should revise more and not always depend on the teachers.
She's right you know.
However in sec sch, if u dun get the question, the teachers will slow down and teach u but in JC, the teachers dun care if u noe or dunno if u nvr ask. They jus move on...
Now then i find out that JC teachers are cold-blooded T.T
I kinda miss my sec sch teachers like my very very fav teacher Miss Zaleha who teaches Chem. She nvr stops to ask us if we get it or not.
Not forgetting Mr Tan who teaches me E-maths. He is really patient with us and never loses his temper.
How i wish things jus dun change but change is inevitable whether we like it or not.
Maybe one day, i will be able to go back to my sec sch and see all my teachers again.. kinda miss them alot though they might not remember me lol
Anyway stress have been getting to me every lecture and sometimes i find it hard to concentrate cause i keep semi-dozing off every minute.
The feelings really unbearable but can u blame me?
I have to wake up so early and take a 1 hour bus trip to sch.
However, on the brighter side, my classmates are quite bonded with each other and its better then my sec sch.
You can never experience JC life anywhere in poly so the experience is quite interesting.

Sometimes in college, i kinda think about the principal's first day speech. She ask us aboutthe goals in our life.
What do we wanna achieve?
For me, i dun really know about it... Im jus studying for the sake of studying..
I never thought about wat university i wanted to go to and what courses to take at all..
I jus dunno wat i want anymore.
Since primary sch till sec 4, I have always wanted to be a Game Designer cause i have been playing so much games in my whole life.
Being a game designer is not about jus designing games but i think that a game designer is one who makes fantasy comes true and inject life into it.
Every characters are design with their special feature and traits.
Its jus so interesting to do that.
However now, i guess my dreams are jus mere dreams now.
Can't really do anything about it..

But even if i can't be a Game Designer, it doesn't mean i wanna give up on studying at a JC cause since im there, gotta try harder to succeed.
If anyone can do it, i can do it too.
Solo warrior Jia You Wor!!!

2009-02-11T17:53:00.002+08:00

Woah today is the start of lessons in Jc.
Tough tough tough...
Dun really get maths, forgot about chem, physics so confusing and econs so boring...
Haiz i totally forgot everything liao
Tmr still need to buy a $150 Casio GC...
So ex..
Anyway today is also CCA exhibition day and i got to choose my CCA..
Headache..
But finally, i chose
1) Tennis
2) Track and field
3) Interact club
Lol hope i can survive in any one of this CCA...
Now time to do Econs project le
Solo warrior

2009-02-10T17:01:00.003+08:00

Back early again today yay!!!
Today is the start of our subject lecture and is so boring... especially after the principle's message. I was so sleepy that i keep dozing off.
I was exceptionally tired today...
Dunno why...
But anyway every teacher was ok except for my Econs teacher.
Shes so fierce and she even gave us a project on the first day of the lecture...
By the way our lecture was at the auditorium where around 500+ student can sit and today is every class combine together for lesson.
Its kinda cool cause i nvr sat at an auditorium before !!!
On the dark side, i lost my water bottle...
i only use it for 2 days T.T
I feel so sad...
Anyway im really tired.. wonder how am i gonna survive..
Im getting to feel really sianz...
On the bright side, i think im getting to talk to my friends there le.
Though not quite often but its a start.
Tmr gotta choose CCA le... Dunno if i should choose Tennis... Confusing

2009-02-09T17:06:00.003+08:00

Its the first day of the week again and its back to school.
Today, my teacher found out that i do not talk to my classmates!!!
He talked to me saying i should hang out with them more cause in Jc, u will need friends and also if i do not have friends, one day i will surely feel that going to school is a torture so i was kinda chase out of class to go and have a break with my friends.
But anyway i did not ggo but jus sat outside some place on the second level and coincedentally, after awhile, all of my classmates came up the staircase where my table is and saw me sitting there alone. Thats so unbelievable that they found me and anyway i followed them back to the classroom and then My Civics tutor starts talking and discussing about the movie we watch this morning.
The movie is kinda lame.
The title is "Who move my cheese"
Then suddenly he talked about me but not saying my name of course.
He said that i should make more friends while looking in my direction but everyone thought its the guy in front of me.
Its kinda embarrassing...
He also told us that when he was in Jc, he always follows the crowd not knowing what to do.
His almost just like me but i dun follow the crowd.
Im kinda shocked that he also was like me in the past but i guess if he can change, i can change too right?
I dunno...
It seems so tough to do that and im feeling so stress jus to be near them cause i need to think of topics to say...but jus try bah
Anyway he also said we will be having a maths test 10 days from now!!
Its so fast!!! We haven really learn anything...
I guess Jc life is like that, fast and furious.
Anyway i must score straight As!!!!
Ganbate!!

2009-02-08T23:05:00.003+08:00

Wow it's been a long time since i blogged and just to update to anyone whose reading my blog.
I'm in Yishun Jc now and its 1 week since i have been in that Jc.
I'm knda frustrated at first cause i wanted to go to a poly and study game designing but then, since i have been accepted there, might as well accept it right?
I have always been thinking Jc life is really no life at all cause u will be busy with lots of projects and the stress in A'level will be killing me and i am right...
The long hours in school is already killing me.
Its from 7.30 to 5pm.
I really can't stand it at all and I'm not that kind of person who studies but now, i will have to work hard at everything i do cause it will affect my admissions towards university even in CCA i think... but anyway this past 5 days starting from Monday, i have been attending orientation at YJC and let me tell u its tiring but its kinda fun so let me give u a summary on these 5 days.

Monday
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The first day in YJC makes me feel so uncomfortable because i didn't even went to Yishun Jc to look around before. Its the first time that day and I'm really feeling out of place.
I miss my friends in secondary school, where every morning we would sit at the Knowledge zone and just chat or sleep there until the Discipline master comes chasing us to the parade square or the hall.
Anyway i made my way to the hall and just sat at my class.
By the way my class is 111. The first 1 represents I'm a Jc 1 student and the second and third 1 is my class number.
The total classes of my cohort is 28 and my total classmates are 20 +.
So moving on.
We were given a opening speech by the principle and after that we were introduce the different houses in the school.
There is Ayden, Brazhem, Cavida, Thossun and Vaunier.
Guess wat, I'm in Vaunier which also means loyalty and its my house from primary school.
Brings back old memories.....
after that, we have a small session of bonding with my classmates which by the way i did not really talk much.
We played Double wacko and the objective of the game is to know our classmates game and i know how to play that game cause i played it in my cell group before.
Its kinda fun.
However the games organized for us on the first day wasn't really fun.
It's just for us to know the school better.

Tuesday
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Back to school again and i got that heavy feeling about it.
The second day was kinda relaxing and fun cause we had to make a flag and i got saboed in doing it cause on the first day i introduce myself and i said i love to draw and they remembered but in the end i did not do it but just helped.
Just to state one thing clear is that i love to design characters not like to draw plants or any stuffs so I'm not really good at them and neither am i really good at designing characters but some are nice.
Don't expect to much from me cause i learn all my drawing skills through seeing how people draw and also by myself.
We had a 1 hour lunch and well the class sits together to eat and for me, i enjoy sitting together and even without talking, i still enjoy it cause at least I'm not alone but with somebody else.
Next, we have to do the couple dance.....
But to say the truth, i enjoyed the dance.
I love to dance but dunno how and don't dare to...
That's the part i hate about myself.
Want to do something but dun have the guts to do it...
I wish i had confidence and i wanna find it just like the lion in the Wizard of Oz wants to find courage but in the end, the lion found that courage comes within himself so maybe one day I will find confidence in myself.

Wednesday
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Today its a little serious cause we had to know what subjects we wanna take and we have to choose carefully cause we need them to go to a course in university but i just choose some subjects i think i can do.
H2 Maths, H2 Chem, H2 Computing and H1 Econ.
Kinda bored at doing this and also there was a presentation show to let us see an animation done by Yishun Jc Media club and we were told to vote for them cause it is one of the nominees for the NEmation thingy.
Not really interested though...

Thursday
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We played lots of House games and also class games.
Some CCA's performed to let us understand more about them and to join them but i still dunno wat to choose.
Still don't really know my classmates well cause i dun really talk to them...
I guess back to the loner me...
Hope i can have friends that i can talk to soon.

Friday
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The last day of Orientation.
We had amazing race around Yishun and a little of Khatib.
It was kinda funny and fun.
These games really trains us in our teamwork.
I enjoyed it when everyone works together.
At the end of these five days we only got very little cheers for our class but i dun mind.
One Cheer we had was called spasm dance where all the girls we saying 111 (our class name) and the guys including me had to do the spasm dance but i did not wanna do it so i didn't do it.
By the way i skipped Orientation at around 5.30 cause i dun wanna stay until 9pm ha ha but anyway i went to cellgroup ok so its not a bad thing :)

Anyway these past few days i had many new experiences and I also see what it means to have a team that really works together.The last thing i learned is that the objectives of this orientation is to let us learn leadership and teamwork to help us cope with our later study cause we will have lots of project works.
Though the school is not my choice but i will do my best in everything.
My its the path that Gods want me to take.
I'm just getting a little push from my parents.

Saturday
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Today i went to church and its been 2 weeks since i went there..
There was times i was committed in going but as days pass the feelings vanish.
I got tired mentally and physically...
Anyway i kinda wanna talk on wat i learned every Saturday from now on maybe i will learn something new when i just talk about it.
Well today's topic is about relationships.
Not really at my age group but anyway may help in my later days....?
Being in a relationship is really serious stuff because its not about me alone but now, its about us.
People at our age should not start a relationship cause we are still not matured enough and also we tend to be more self-centered.
I also learn something funny at Church and its that we have a Love-Bank!
Its when we spend time with anyone who is the opposite sex, we accumulate points and when we got quite a high amount, love starts to develop.
The skits that they show us about relationships were funny.
Its seriously awesome.
I wonder why the drama team did not have their own channel so they can act out dramas and we can watch them everyday.
I also learned why some people have affairs and i use to think that the person who was having an affair stinks cause they hurt their partners but after listening to what the pastor says, i learned that both parties are in the wrong.
I also learn 1 of the 5 basic needs a man and woman need in a relationship.
The first need for woman is Affection.
Which means the woman have to feel secured, protected and comfortable.
Hug ur partners and show them the love u have for them or else they will be thinking u dun love them.
The first basic need for men is well lol kinda funny and weird and that is Sexual fulfillment. Its also a reason why men have affairs.
The other 4 will be told next week and i can't wait for it. Its interesting. Lol weird...
Anyway i wont go into details but i think i have... my blog is already very long and wonder if anyone reads it till the end lol.
If u have congratz this is the end!!!
Well gotta sleep le cause i spent 1 and a half hours to write it and i have college tomorrow.Anyway i will only be blogging every Sunday cause i got no time when I'm in Jc because of the tiring hours anyway...
Nitez!!!

2009-01-08T14:15:00.002+08:00

12Jan, the release of our O level results..
Haiz i wish this day will never come but what's bound to come, has to come.
I'm really afraid that i did not do well for my exams but everyone keeps telling me that i will do well but just got this feeling in me telling me that i did not do well...
What if i did really badly...
I dun wanna re-sit for it...
I dun wanna relive the days...
Haiz...troublesome and depressing...

Anyway im not gonna think about it anymore...
Let me live my few days of peace peacefully...
I think...
4 more days to the release of O level result...

2009-01-02T18:29:00.005+08:00

Its been a few days since i blog so well im gonna tell u wat i did starting from 31 december 2008.

31 dec 2008
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Well that day was THE LAST DAY OF THE YEAR and of cos i got plans on how to celebrate it. My friends invited me to go Vivo to look around then after that we go see the fireworks there so when i came at around 9 pm, i saw an escalator crowded with lots of ppl. Apparently there were some police there at the entrance of the escalator to do some sort of body check to prevent terrorism.
Its the first time i see so many ppl jammed at the escalator.
They really sort of dumb because the other escalator to the second floor was empty.
They didn't really check it out.
Anyway when i met my friends, we went to National Geographic and look around and also to play around.
It was fun:D
After about 11.55, we went up to the outside where the celebrities were and countdown to 2009!!!
I saw some celebrities that day and ITS THE FIRST TIME I SEE FIREWORKS!!!
Its beautiful though some objects block my view.

As you can see its really crowded

woo big Christmas tree...I like:D
I did not take a pic of the fireworks though cause eventhough my cam is 5 megapixel, its lousy...
So after that, i went to my friends house to sleepover. Its fun though cause i didnt sleep at all and i played lots of games.

1 jan 2009
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Its the first day of the year YAY!!!
I stayed at my friend's house till about 8.45 then i left with JiaCheng.
We separated later and when i reached home, i immediately went to bath then to bed.
I was really tired and sweaty. X(
I woke up at around 4 plus when my parents say we are gonna go eat buffet at Sakura at Safra.
And as you can see the pic below, there are lots seafood.

After that we went to shop at Cs and Tm.
It was funny because Im the only one who keeps buying everything that i see.
Im also glad because i finally got a new pair of shoes from converse.
The good thing is that my mum bought for me the vest and she gave me $100 to buy my clothing.
The sad part is that $100 was not enough and i got to pay with my own money T.T

These were wat i bought.

2 jan 09
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Well got nth to say here because what i did today was only watching Resident Evil: Degenration in the afternoon then i played DOMO all day:D
Well thats all:)

2008-12-30T21:29:00.003+08:00

Went to Simei today to get back my phone and ....
Yay haha finally its back in my hands!!! HAHAHA
Really hope that it will not get spoiled again.

Anyway today i have been playing DOMO all day and i think that i have really bonded with my online friend Snivia:D
We just really click on the spot and btw, shes my teacher who guided me all the way.
I really enjoy her company.
We make a great team too :D
Really wish I have real friends like that here who would brave danger with me hehe
Anyway Snivia and I are sort of managing our guild called Nightshade so we will be working together quite often :D
O well meeting Snivia in DOMO so cya :D
just an update:D

2008-12-28T23:01:00.002+08:00

Woo... today was an incredibly boring day at home.
Spent almost 5 hours watching Ben 10 on cartoon network.
I kinda like the cartoon.
Something about it attracts me.
After that i watch Ben 10: Alien force which is when Ben is a teenager.
So thats how i spent my afternoon.
Boring huh..

Its comin to the end of the year soon in 4 more days.
I wish time would move slowly so i dun have to quickly get back my results T.T
and after this year, i will not see any of my secondary school classmates anymore except for those who go out with me, go church with moi and talks to me but im also proud to say 6B is still united as always woohoo!!!
After the end of this year, it will be the 4th year that 6B got separated but we still are sort of in touch with each other. Every year, the girls will organize a chalet and we will get together and play and talk and do whatever stuff we wanna do.
I really miss my primary school.
Those are the fun days.
Maybe one day, i will put up all my class photos including primary school when i get a scanner of course :)

Anyway, this few days i have been feeling really tired. Wonder if im getting something.
Everyday i would sleep for about 12 hours and when i wake up for 2 hours, i begin to feel tired....
Maybe im lacking sunshine XD

BUT, nth is going to stop me from enjoying my holidays.
Maybe i should organize more stuffs to do with my friends but one problem... I dun have money now T.T
Kinda use all of it up during the season of giving which is Christmas!!!
So now waiting for Chinese New Year to top up my cash box hehe...or... maybe i should get a job...
Too bad im "bestowed" with weak characteristics....
Dun really dare to do anything...

Haiz...hmmm maybe i should blog half about my life in the real world and half in DOMO next time... cause, sometimes i really dunno wat to talk about...
but again, who cares about DOMO (I do), its not like its interesting (its interesting :D) or fun (its really fun). Phish...hehe

Anyway thats it for today i guess.
Cya XD

2008-12-27T01:20:00.004+08:00

Time passes so fast cause now its almost towards the end of the year.
Sometimes i wish time would rewind and let me set things straight.

Well, today my cellgroup had a Thanksgiving party. It's the second one i have been too and every year we will definitely have it. Usually it is held near towards the end of year.
I had a great time today and i think im more receptive to taking photos now. At least not like last time when someone wanna take a photo with me, i scoot off.
Today, i have also decided to be committed to being a Christian.
To say it truly, in my past, i met with many trials and uaually i am unable to overcome them and it really hits me strongly. My relationship with God was slowly being cut off until i dun want to come to church anymore but after the party, i have decided to at least try to repair the disconnected connection with God.
Also , today one of our member left N397. Its really sad.

However in that party i sort of realised that im not really a good evangelist. Every friend that i bring to church stays for a little while and then, they will be gone. Maybe im being too impatient. Like the saying goes" Dun try to walk when u haven try to crawl" Maybe im just a failure at this. Im not good at talking with people and im not a good counsellor. Im not able to help ppl with their problems. One example is Cj. His my best friend but im just not able to mend the broken ties he has towards the cellgroup. i really hope he comes to cellgroup but i know he won't because of his attitude...

Anyway its coming to the end and O level results will be release soon. Im really scared because i just felt that i have done badly T.T
Hope that i have done well or else i will really cry T.T

2008-12-26T02:21:00.002+08:00

Yay today is Christmas!!!
Finally, I have been waiting for this day for a long time and i am really tired today.
Why?
well because yesterday i slept at around 3 plus am and woke up at 8am to continue wrapping the presents.
Anyway as i said earlier, i woke up at 8 am and slept on my computer chair for half an hour before continueing to wrap the presents.
Got dress and went to Expo hall 8 to celebrate Christmas with my Church and also to watch the drama ==Operation: Save the world==.
The drama was really funny and guess what?
My former PE teacher from Junyuan Sec Sch acts as Joseph.
Who is he?
Well he is none other then Mr Jae!! WOOOHOOO!!!
Didnt noe he was in the drama ministry in church.
So long nvr see him le and its really a big surprise for me.
When i saw him i was in doubt then when i look closer, and recognise its him, i quickly tapped JiaCheng and JiaWei's shoulder saying "That's Mr Jae!! Look its him!"
lol
After service,my cell group mates planned to watch Bedtime stories at Plaza Singapura at around 9 plus and i agreed to go.
My parents after that,picked me up at Expo and we went shopping aroun Tm and Cs.
I ate Baked chicken rice with cream sauce and it wasnt very tasty.
After eating, i went home and fell asleep till about 7.05pm then i suddenly awoke and quickly rush to take a MRT to Eunos cause IM LATE!!!
Suppose to meet my friend at Eunos there at around 7.30pm but anyway in the end, i wasnt late but was just on time :)
Max and I borded the train and continued to Cityhall station and then i found out that JiaWei was there too.
Tried to find her but shes like invisible.Can't see her anywhere....
But anyway we met at Douby Gaut control station and went around Plaza Singapura to look.
Both of them kept trying to find clothes for me, giving me a new style.
Its not that i dun wan but i do not have money.
The clothes were awesome!! but maybe i will buy them when i grow a little fatter. XD
Seeing those clothes made me so tempted to buy all of them T.T
DId you know theres a Japanese store in Plaza Singapura?
Well i did not know until Max told me they sell Japanese stuffs at 2 dollars each.
I quickly ran in to have a look and finally i bought Instant Miso soup and some japanese chocolates.
Im so happy today :D but i still cant figure out how to cook the instant Miso soup cause the instructions are all in Japanese.... I wanna learn Jap!!!!
Anyway... moving on...
FInally all 12 to 16 of us met and we proceeded to watch BEDTIME STORIES!!
The movie was funny and I LOVE BUGSY!!! His so cute with his big eyes hehe:D
After the movie, i found out that my wallet is empty cause I HAVE SPEND EVERY SINGLE DOLLAR I HAVE FOR CHRISTMAS T.T i do not have any money left T.T so sad *sob*

In this Christmas, im sad to say that i did not really spend much quality time with my parents but im gonna make up for it!!!
Never neglect my parents!!
I love them eventhought sometimes i don't :D
Anyway they postponing our sort of another Christmas dinner to 1 Jan 2009!!! cause by then, my mum will get her BIG FAT BONUS!!
Lol
Love this Christmas and i hope you enjoyed yours too :D
Well, its 2.45am now so that means Christmas is OVER!!! sad for meT.T
But im looking forward to next year's Christmas!!!
Nitez!

2008-12-24T23:59:00.001+08:00

Its 34 mins to Christmas!!!!
Yay:D
I really love christmas and i haven wrap the presents yet...

Well today i watch Yes man and i find that the movie was really good. The moral of the story is to say yes to certain things but not all the time.
Yes is the new no!!!
Haha the movie was really funny too.

After watching the movie and after meeting another friend i became really irritated.
Why did i say so?
I think they still dunno why....
Well anyway i was really fustrated about both of them.
Since both of my friends are of different gender then i will address one as malay male and malay female.
To malay male: Im sure u will read this blog too..cause well..u are the only one who knows my blog link but anyway im just saying.

Lets talk about Malay Male
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Well whenever i go out with him, he keeps thinking about himself only.
For example, he always want to go to Tampines mall's toys'rus then to popular then to Centuary Square's(opps dunno how to spell :X) Best Denki then to maybe comics connection and or the shop beside comic's connection.
I dun really mind but he keeps looking at what he wants.
In toys'rus, he keeps looking at Game of Life cause well..his obsess with board games.
In popular, he keeps looking at the headgear set for the computer and then he will walk to the back and look at the diaries...
After that, he would go to Best Denki to look at everything. From Laptops to mouses to earphones to whatever electronics there.
Last time, i said i wanted to look for a new jacket and he jus says ok and walks on to the above locations,dismissing the thought.
I was appauled because he only looks at what he wants.
I'm just a follower following...
Its not really fun going out like this....
[No offence though if offended]

Now for the Malay Female
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Well, shes sweet and stuffs but when shes near the Malay Male, it will seem like in this world, only two people exist, and that is Both of the Malay Male and Female.
They will keep speaking in Malay and for your information...IM CHINESE though im not really good at it but HELLO I dun speak(maybe a little) nor listen(maybe a little) to Malay. Eventhough they tried to speak in english but it would be all about boyfriends and girlfriends... Hello...do you think its really appropriate to talk about personal stuffs in the open?
Today especially... They were so caught up in their conversation that they did not notice i purposely slowed down my walking so that they would be in front of me and i slowe down until they were quite in front and guess wat? They did not notice i wasnt with them until a little while later. WTH i was fuming mad about it.
If you dun want me to be around then jus say it, I will auotmatically scram..
Anyway no offence about that..

So moving on from that unpleasant experience, i saw some "stuffs" that i could buy for my friends(or cellgroup mates..dunno about that) and seriously the descriptions fits them!! Amazing!!

Anyway now its 11.53 and theres a Christmas party below!!! Lots of ppl are singing at the playground.
We wish you a Merry Christmas, We wish you a Merry Christmas, We wish you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
and after that its the I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas, I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas, I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas from the bottom of my heart!!
Its rocking dudes so many neighbours and other ppl are singing in unison haha love the Christmas spirit!!!
WOOO
love Christmas :D
Anyway wish all my friends a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

2008-12-23T15:48:00.000+08:00

Christmas is comin in well... 2 days!!!!
I really like Christmas among all the festives we have in Singapore.
I like the Christmas tree(the very big kind),
the presents,
the feeling that its Christmas and of course
SNOW!!!!
Too bad theres no snow in Singapore T.T
but really hoped that one day it will miraculously snow.
Even if its jus for a second,
I just wanna feel it....
The glistening white frozen water slowly falling from above.
When it lands on ur hand, it melts away into water.
The feeling...
[Come on come on jus once *cross fingers*]
Its best to spend Christmas with my family but this year we will not have our Christmas buffet like other years.
Why?
Well we had that 2 days ago!
It was not a buffet but its different from any other restaurant.
All sushis are of 99 cents and the other dishes are of other prices.
Its nice having dinner together with my family once in a while because my parents will be the one who pays for it lol XD
Jus kidding :D
Its jus that whenever we have dinner together, someone will be fustrated with someone but this never happens at this time.
It was a nice evening we spent together
Before we had our dinner at that restaurant, we went to Vivo to look around.
To be honest, it was my first time at Vivo and also it was the first time for my mum.
She said " Ok, let's go to Vivo and smell the air there"
What she meant was Vivo is like a place for rich ppl to shop cause everything is Expensive.
My father bought me a bermuda and a shirt which cost 75.90 in total and he said this is my christmas day present O.O
Anyway i dun mind.....
maybe a little......
Ok A lot!! but whatever.....
On the bright side, im not paying :D
Hope Christmas can last forever....
Maybe i should migrate into a snowglobe hehe
That way, Christmas will last forever:p

Btw, i stumbled upon a song thats really nice and its about whatever that you have done in the world, you can always come home.
Its really nice and when i listen to it, i feel so at home eventhough im really at home :D

Home-Josh Verdes
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I've done my time in this crazy world
What trails have I left behind?
But no matter what I've done, I know
I can always come home

So take me home
From the beach to the bay
Take me home
To good ol' Cambridge Way
Take me home
Cuz there's nowhere else I'd rather be
Than to come back to the place that made me....me
I'm coming home

And when I see this world
And all it has to offer
I know I'll stand amazed
No matter what I see
I know theres just no place like home

So take me home
From the beach to the bay
Take me home
To good ol' Cambridge Way
Take me home
Cuz there's nowhere else I'd rather be
Than to come back to the place that made me....me
I'm coming home
I'm coming home

No matter what road I take
It never feels quite the same
And yet it's all the same
So here I am another night
I can't ignore you, 64 you bring me more than words can say
You bring me home

So take me home
From the beach to the bay
Take me home
To good ol' Cambridge Way
Take me home
Cuz there's nowhere else I'd rather be
Than to come back to the place that made me....me
Cuz theres nowhere in this world i rather be
I'm coming home
I'm coming home

This is a great song and its a way out from all those rock and roll song..
Anyway i think i will spent some time at home on Christmas :D
One last thing before i sign off, i will not be putting any tagboard anymore cause its not use anyway so this will be like my online diary :D
For you to see and you to comment to urself :D